Thought I was feeling better and maybe I am. But think its time to start coming up with a plan. Because I don’t want another or anything else for that matter in my life anymore. I still feel empty and sad, but I do things. I’m not in bed anymore. I try to move on and see other people, but don’t want to anymore. I fell in love with that girl and thought it was real between the both of us, but it was just me. I relized I fooled myself again or whatever. But also feel ready to go. Lived the best I could […]
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It is taking me again… I don’t want to go. I’m sobbing and I’m tired… I’m so tired loves. Save me from myself. From the depression… Save yourselves from the sorrow that is me
home is in his arms.
i want to go home.
I hate it. I hate it so much. Being with my friends (when I’m treated fairly) helps me so much. I just want to be with them all forever. It’s comforting and it distracts me. When I’m at home I’m alone, they don’t text me and I look at my phone and beg for them to. The only time my friends really reply is when I’m with them and my depression keeps me from most of that happiness..
I should know by now..that the people who say they love you are so quick to hurt you. I am tired i letting things slide..but bc i love you i don’t want to throw away what i feel so easily. But today i thought why do i always get hurt? I am loyal..honest..and a bunch of other shit. I love you but you don’t love me.
I was gonna cut but then i realize i will only suffer the after effect of it.
So i will cry in privacy everyday
i wanna die and i’m peeved cause i can’t get myself to kill myself and also i’m peeved cause if i’m dead i won’t be able to appreciate how nice it is to not have to be alive anymore. i just don’t know what’s happening because now dying sounds sketchy but i don’t want to be alive either. IM ANGRY AT EVERYTHING
Fuck this life, man…
Fuck it all… Not even dope can help me heal now… It’s all clear, I’m not meant to live in this world, or any other for that matter…
I hate it when I have to wake up in the morning… Sleeping without any dreams is so peaceful… If death is like that, I want to die. There may be no turning back, but I don’t want to ever wake up again. All I want is to sleep. An eternal sleep, and nothing more. Is that too much to ask of this sadistic world? Perhaps it is…
Because of my new part-time job (as a […]
My life is more or less over. I don’t want to write my story, my brain just stopped working altogether.
From what I tried to discover, there is life after death, we just cant know what it is. So the only thing is belief that the next life will be better, nothing else. Dont panic.
I am going to kill myself at the end of the week. I have an unpleasant meeting mid-week and I want to give it a day of buffer on either side. I’m not killing myself because of this stupid meeting, and don’t want it to look that way. I *could* leave a note, but justifying my suicide would do more harm than good, and leaving a listing things that *weren’t* a factor would be confusing.
I’m sick of dragging myself through life. I’m in my late twenties and have been suicidal since my early teens. Why I didn’t do it sooner is beyond me. That would […]
Me and my boyfriend broke up a month ago. We were close to our 1 year, but he didn’t feel the same anymore. It was long distance so of course it wouldn’t last. I felt okay the first few weeks but now I feel like shit. My friends don’t seem to help, they try, but I don’t think they know that I think about suicide constantly. When I want to talk I feel pushed away. I feel alone and most of the time I want to be alone. I want nobody to talk to. I just want to die, I feel like everything is falling […]
When people look at me, they don’t see me. It’s my fault for hiding and lying and smiling, but sometimes I wish that someone would see me and ask what was wrong.
When people look at me, they see ridiculously high grades, higher than they have. They don’t see how I fall apart every time I look at a math problem, how I always have doubts no matter how well I’m doing, how I constantly worry.
When I say I’m nervous about a hard test, everyone scoffs. They’re usually right t0 – I always pass. They don’t understand that I really am nervous… I’m so stressed that I want to curl up […]
I usually don’t post twice a week. But I have no one else to vent to and I’m just on the edge. I have nothing going for my life. As said before, I’m getting kicked out of school and this is my last semester but my parents don’t know. If they find out, I’m not sure what would happen, but I still decided not tell them. I figured since I’m supposed to go back to school January 20th after the break, and I’ve already picked out my date on Jan. 9th (my birthday) so I guess I won’t have to worry about school anymore. Or […]
Today I told my mom that I am going to end my life on my birthday. My birthday is in 2 months. I only told her because I didn’t want it to be a surprise for her. I wanted to give her enough time to sit with the idea. I always mess things up in life. I’m just not good at it. I tried to take my life 2 years ago but it didn’t work. I took it as a sign that I must have a reason to live. But no, it was just me failing again. So, this time I’m going to make sure […]
“The responsible one, the mature one, the reasonable and the rational one. No, I could never just take all that Xanax that’s not right. Gotta keep the grades up gotta stay smart gotta do it right or it all goes downhill.”
Right? That’s who I fucking am, right?
But, you see, I’m so god damned tired of being the responsible, mature, rational girl that knows not to make stupid decisions. Drugs and alcohol are no good, I know what they do to you. I’ve sat through every fucking school assembly about how deadly that lifestyle is, I’ve witnessed people go down that path and never return. But […]
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Hey guys, I haven’t been on here in a little bit and I think it would be best for me if I leave.. I feel this place is a good release but the surrounding negativity doesn’t help me. My mom is getting really on my case because I’ve been cutting again and other problems in life are arising and I think I should try to do better. I wish all of you luck, truly, and if you ever want to talk just ask for my email on this post, ill try to check it for awhile. Do better in this life than I have.
I’m 15 and I have zero friends and just want some one to talk to. I’ve never really had any friends/girlfriend. I fell like just killing myself idk what to do anymore.
This morning I sent out all my thanksgiving text to my family and close loved ones. Tellin them that I love them and the reason why I’m thankful for them. At least they’ll know how I feel when I off myself. I’ve been on this site since 2012 and nothing hasn’t gotten better. It only got worse.
I guess this is why rape victims never come forward about anything. I’ve only told 5 of my closest friends and out of the five, two have told me it was my fault and one doesn’t believe me after I told him the whole story from start to finish. […]
I don’t want to be here anymore. I want to go far away. Can I just die? There’s nothing to live for. I have people all around me but they’re not a good enough reason to make me want to stay alive. It doesn’t matter if I die right now. It would just save me the trouble since I don’t have plans for my future. The person I love the most is gone and there’s no reason to live without her. I’m thankful for the people around me since others have had it worse, but this is not what I want.
I guess I could say […]
As you have comments off I decided to make this post. You have been part of SP for such a long time (with more names than I can keep track of lol). Yet I don’t see you say much about you. Usually you are giving good advice or leaving posts on other subjects like football. So your latest post has me worried. Want to talk? Here or email. Sometimes we find ideas or hope in the oddest places.
It’s my username at hot mail c om