Hi, I am a typical high schooler. Im apart of my schools band. I love it at times. In the seventh grade I was bullied to the point of suicidal thoughts. I was put in the hospital. My parents say I only did it for attention. I ddnt. I was really sad and saw no reason tl live. Back in may, I was hospitalized for attempted suicide. I had got in a lot of trouble for something I didnt do. I felt like my parentd hated me. They even asked around for boarding school. They want me to be perfect. Im a teen, I make […]
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Friend: If you had the choice, which super-power would you choose ?
Me: The power To-Be-Happy
Friend: Why ?
Me: We wish to become a Super-hero, like the ones who decorate our books, movies and comics, with their Super-natural powers. Their powers, is what we wish for: their ability to fly, be invincible, breathe fire, or extraordinary speed. Is speed needed when we need to slow down; why want invincibility when lack-of-acknowledgement is the root cause of our sadness; asking to fly when the ground is not understood is useless; breathing fire into a world that closely resembles hell –l is just plain sad. Asking for the Super-natural […]
Like all of us here, ive spent more than enuff time swimming in a pool of self imposed agony, I realize its all an illusion inside my head. Ultimately ive decided to LET GO. And realize we all are dying whether we want to or not. I guess suffering is nessesary in order to see the truth. It became easier when i just stopped caring.
I just feel numb and cold. My skin feels tight and i feel like i’m suffocating. Why am I here? What am i suppose to be doing? My head feels heavy trying to figure out what path i should follow. What is Life suppose to be like? i should want what other people do right? Family, Love, Success? But i don’t. It doesn’t lift this heaviness in my chest that feel everyday. it feels suffocating to me. That can’t be all there is to life. I feel like i was born in the wrong time. Maybe i should have never existed and should be wiped […]
Spirit-bomb of Goku
I don’t get it
The way that I come
Not like Chi-Chi
I don’t know
The way to make-it
Do you hate me
Do you want me to feel pain
I’m here for you, I always be
In the same that I always was
I just need your spirit
I’m not here to steal you from a man
Koji, I love you, too, and I don’t know
I’ll make-it for you, too
I want you by my side
Just take-me to the place that I found
I can show you
I have no-more, do you want to hear my pain
You can […]
I wan to die; to sleep forever. But, I so desperately want to love life, to be happy. But it seems impossible.
I’m so tired of this world and everything in it… I’m 36 years old, my mom has paranoid schizophraenia, my youngest brother was adopted out of my family due to that, my dad tried to kill me when I was young, I was molested for almost 8 years, and these are all of the things I have learned to accept.
No matter what I do in life, I feel like I am constantly starting over and constantly getting shit on. I give up everything I know, in my country and in my life, to move from the states to the UK to be with my wife […]
That’s what people said to me after I broke up with my boyfriend.. I’ve posted about my story a few weeks ago (I was engaged with a good and loving man who promised me he would be there forever.. But it didn’t work. My bad character and my childhood (like hell in fact) made that he wasn’t able to love me anymore). Since then I was depressed, couldn’t sleep anymore, feel like nothing, empty. And I don’t know how or why I began to hang out with friends, to meet people, to laugh. I remember saying myself: life isn’t so hard! Go on like this! […]
I don’t have anymore tunes, as well
So I guess, I’m gonna’ hope to, be able
My name, is Bisban, and I guess
There’s only me that knows, who I am
From the eternal-table, why does he want to smile for
He only looks for a light and he’s everybody’s friend
But the paradigm, and a paradigm
I don’t know, I guess I’ll take this chance to be more precise
I am not here to take your hand, like that, only because of the way that I am
I fell like an ocean, and I seek the heart of all, now
I only want to walk, I only want to walk
What’s the point of life? All you do is struggle and live, and eventually die. Why do we study hard? What’s the point of living if you don’t want to? I feel like life is a cruel joke thrust upon us even when we don’t want to live. Everyone suffers, for no reason at all. It is completely pointless. Life sucks and it always has. There is no point at all to it.
i am fighting the hurt i feel inside. after 13 years of giving my time, love, and heart to this woman, within a few days, she betrayed me and left me all alone. i am 53 years old and lost my youth by giving it all to her. it’s been 5 years now but still the pain comes and goes but mainly comes and stays for a long while. i have tried courting other women but none of them are interested.my heart seems unable to heal. my daughter wouldn’t give me an ear, my family is not interested, no one really to talk to. i […]
I may just be a dumb teenager, but, right now I’m hurting so bad… It may seem silly, the reason…
I liked someone since I was fourteen, well I was with him… for a year and then some, Christmas 2013 he ripped my heart out… well, yesterday was his birthday… And memories are still making it hard for me to breathe. Why does it still hurt so bad after a year? shouldn’t I be over this or something??? Everyone said that as a teenager I’d get over it in a couple months, but that couple months turned into a year… and I’m sick of it. I […]
I really want to go back in Japan, I want to feel my mom’s love right now, I feel so alone even though they’re right here besides me, I know they care but I guess the care that I’m looking for is not here, and sometimes I feel like I don’t belong here…….
here in this house……
I feel like a stranger who went missing in some place I don’t know and stayed here because I don’t know how to go back home.
i wish someone could relate
Last-bowl, last-song
I don’t want to come back
Train-wrecked the best of the year
Genie, what are you
Everyone disappears
The eternal is a curse that is a suffering, pain
I’m Sasuke, I’m going to die until I’m never coming back
But I have all lost, a ruin of physiological agony
I curse at my hell
Why do we try? One swipe, one, stab, one shot and its over. No more hassles, no more fight, no more struggle. No more isolation, depression, desperation, no more thoughts. Just action, commitment, sacrifice. It would be worth it. I don’t want relief. I know I’ll never get it, why wishful think? I’m beyond relief. Relief is something thats there, yet out of reach. There is only numbness left for me, but even thats a feeling. So nothing would be better than this! Cause what we [at least I] have is worse than nothingness, worse than death! So, why try? When we could be dead […]
I think it’s time to go and die. well I had good times in this life but my last 2 years were like hell and I just want to die and release all the pressure that I feel . I know this is the wrong choice but the only one. actually I want to suicide just to tell them my pain I don’t want to die. wish me good luck and I love you all and thank you very much
How do you have everything going for you and yet still find yourself just going to screw itup for reasons that aren’t entirely valid right now?
I made up with my best friend, I have my first ever guy friend, and things seem okay.but my fear of the future is causing me to want to end my life.my younger sister has my same fear ironically enough shes afraid of turning eighteen this year cause my parents will divorce forcing us to have to choose who we want to go with mom or dad.i don’t want to choose id rather choose suicide shed rather leave to […]
Listen. Your life may be bad and you may feel like your drowning in a pit of constant fear and hate and you’re struggling to reach the surface once again but honestly, you’re perfect. If you’re a size Plus or an extra small, small chested or big chested, blonde or brunette, blind or deaf; you’re beauty is a unique creation and there’s not another one like it. So try not to tear it open, even if it’s hard to live in. If you die, yes you’re out of your misery but even those who keep silent about you will blame themselves and create a chain reaction. It […]
why all good and happy times passes so fast??why people that we love we don’t know their importance until they’re gone???why life is soo hard???I really want to die and I pray every day for god to die but I’m still alive . can anyone help me to get over my depression and loneliness?? thank you everyone
Hi again all. I apologize to those of you whom I did not reply to on my last post. All of your input was extremely helpful and I am so happy ive joined this site.
Anywho, I want to inquire about the following-
Does anyone else want to leave their body? I feel so over whelmed in this body. I want my consciousness/energy to be released. I want to be everywhere or anywhere at any given time, yet I’m stuck in this vessel of a body. I feel as if if I left this body I’d be so much happier and free. I don’t want to have […]