Just any1. Any1 at all. I need to talk to anyone. I don’t want 2 feel like this I need to let it out. Im tired of holding it inside. I dont want to cut. I need a friend. I feel alone and scared. Im tired. Just someone 2 listen and not judge. please.
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So i have been having really deep depression latly and idk how to deal with it. I cant talk to anyone about it because i have no one. Id just like to talk to someone who understands me
Myemail is justin _ evans at aol
Travelling on a train I wonder how many of my fellow passengers suffer from suicidal thoughts; who, like me, had considered jumping under the train instead of getting on it.
In the supermarket I wonder how many of the other customers suffer from depression; who, like me, had difficulty getting out of bed and motivated.
Walking down the road I wonder how many of whose walking past suffer from social anxiety; who, like me, just want to be hidden away indoors instead.
How many others are there who suffer in quiet; ripped apart on the inside, but silent stoicism on the outer; I wonder.
I just wish my sanity would just stay. I hate it when my head plays these games. I wish the panic attacks would just stop. It is not that big of a deal. I’m so insicure and you can see it in my face. I’m so ashamed of it. I wish I could just talk about things instead of bottling it. Instead of dealing with shit I get lost in work. I enterlenize everything. I’m destroying myself. And then the anger. It just builds in my system. It fucking boils. I can’t stand it sometimes. It’s me. I know it’s me and it sucks I […]
I don’t want to live anymore. I’m no poet, no profound words, no beautiful prose. I just want to move on to whatever is next. I had a friend who killed herself. It was such a shock: she was so perfectly beautiful that men literally collided with each other when they saw her.
But now I see her as so brave and I am deeply ashamed that I can’t even get up enough courage to stop being a burden to everyone around me. I am already a ghost in my own life, a literal cliched shadow of my former self. When my boyfriend looks at me,he […]
I am a 37 year old male. I’ve had major depression since I was 13. Effexor is no longer working, and I do not see the point in continuing to increase the dose. It worked for a while, limiting very frequent thoughts of suicide to less frequent thoughts of suicide. I’ve never tried to kill myself, because I don’t want to hurt people who love me. Living for the past 24 years is like doing the dishes all the time. I perceive life as a complete waste of time and effort. Pop culture’s advertisement of life is unrealistic and even more boring than my life. […]
My mom died just a couple of months ago in October. She was my best friend. I don’t have any other friends. Her absence leaves me feeling very alone in this world. I’ve been married for 12.5 years to someone who doesn’t seem to love me and it finally seems to be falling apart now. I need my mom more than ever. My oldest brother finds nothing but disappointment in me. My other brother would screw me over for an opportunity to help himself and his family. The only person on this earth now who loves me and would miss me is my teenage son. […]
Hi I’m a little afraid to do this but here it goes.
My name is destine. Lately I’ve been depressed. I think it’s just everything . that’s been going on. I don’t live with my mom and dad. My mom passed a way tho. I lost contact with most of my friends and my family. Because my aunt and uncle. They adopted us. They would be really mean. Put me and down. And a lot of other things to me and my little brother. I’ve missed my old life with my mom still alive and everything.
ive been lost not knowing what to do. I’ve cut before […]
I truly do not understand the point of my life.. for a long time now I haven’t been able to picture a future. Like I don’t have one, like I’m meant to die young. But I just recently found out that that is actually a symptom of my ptsd. Which was kind of disappointing because it doesn’t change the fact that I still don’t see my living past a few years and honestly I’d rather not. I don’t want to live anymore. I’ve been feeling like that for years and the more time goes on the more intense it feels. I do not see a […]
Thanks for your comments; as usual I decided to postpone my decision for a night. But I know it can not work. I am 23 but I really I feel that the future does not need me and I don’t need it. The worst thing is I lost all my believes even in God. I am in middle of nowhere. I am studying in a foreign country, even I cannot see my close friends and family. Nothing good is not happening around me. I think the time is coming but not to heal my wound but to create a worsen one……………………………………………………………………
Thanks for your reading.. I […]
So I’ve been fighting through terrible depression for a lot of years. I was in an abusive relationship for over a decade where my insecurities anxieties and depression were used to keep me blind and dumb. All my friends have moved or disappeared. I was not raised to communicate or express myself properly.
All of this has lead to me just spending my days wishing I could die. Apparently this would upset too many people.
My question is why can’t I? Why can’t I have what I want? I just want peace. I don’t feel like a real person anymore and I just want to […]
just hate it when you’re sure you want to end your life and then someone makes you feel the need to stay?
Well the past few days I’ve been getting worse, quite bad to be honest. Today was my first day back at school after the holiday and I was so scared because I’ve been feeling extremely lonely and I know no one at my school cares about me, none of them ever want to talk to me. So yeah today I was quite scared because I had been convincing myself for ages that no one likes me and I’m never going to make friends anywhere, I’ll be lonely forever.
Yeah I do admit today was horrible, being surrounded by all those people who don’t care, turn their […]
keeps trying to take him from me. if he goes to work for his stupid uncle traveling he knows I can’t do that. now he’s gone for two days and I didn’t even know I just want out. how many energy drinks do I have to drink? alcohol will be included in this too
The nowhere, is a place that does and doesn’t exists. Like most things, it’s in the mind; but it’s lives in every moment of your life. A special kind of void/emptiness exists in the Nowhere. Void is emptiness itself, Nowhere, is full of emptiness. all it’s emptiness stops you in your path, then diverts you into another road that is leads to another “emptiness”. Like the the universe, the emptiness is endless, unlimited, vast and unrestrained. And like the universe, it’s full of chaos, and only chaos. You want it to be more like the universe that has stars, planets and at least one planet […]
I feel like the only reason I haven’t killed myself is because how sad it would make everyone around me.
Is that selfish?
I don’t want to live. It pains me to get out of bed every morning, I don’t see the point.
All I am is a fucking grade point average, and believe me, that number isn’t too great. I can’t be stupid, I’ve been a success for much of my life, and I’m certified as gifted, but now I can’t even pass my god damn classes. What college would want a lazy, idiotic piece of shit such as I?
Now I’m gonna have that song in my head. I don’t want to die. I just … don’t want to live, either. Can you commit suicide by apathy? What if I just stop taking my meds, stop eating, stop drinking, stop doing anything other than lay in my bed and stare at the wall and remind myself that I’m a cold-hearted monster that breaks everything, that can’t really love, and that no one will ever love back? I hope my cats wait until I’m dead to start nibbling at my body for survival, but, well, c’est la vie. It’s […]
And the sad thing is…. I actually want to live.
nias
Why do I keep saying soon but never now.
My problems are never going away so why do I keep putting off my suicide, why do I keep saying I’ll just do this or that first. Do I really want to die? well, yes and no; yes, I’ve had enough of my depressing life and this world, but no, I still wish things could work out for me, how can that ever be though, I’m an ugly, paranoid, stupid waste of space. I’m stuck with depression and social anxiety, and the cause of said problems, a body that, due to toxin build-up, has created something horrible […]