So, it’s the end of a terrible spring break. Last week, a kid in my class began making fun of Death, like it was something casual. He asked my closest friend if she “wanted to die”. She of course replied no, but he replied with “I think you’re lying”. I told him not to joke around about Death, cuz some people have bad memories with it. He flipped out on me, saying it was natural and nothing can stop it. Now, he had heard about my friend, and how she died in front of me, thanks to me, but he obviously didn’t care. It’s hard […]
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Misinformation. Misinformation will raise your hopes and when you’re about to cash in those hopes and make them reality; bam. You search the internet better than you did the last time you wanted to commit suicide and, will you look at that, turns out suicide by pills isn’t as peaceful as you thought. Wait, wait… what? You won’t go to sleep and never wake up again? Hollywood misdirected you? How dare those movies make it seem so simple? Oh, what’s that? You might throw up violently? Your head will feel close to exploding? B-but—IT’LL FEEL LIKE YOU’RE LIVER’S BEING RIPPED OFF YOUR INSIDES AS IT’S […]
Is it selfish to want the agony of what you feel everyday too stop
Is it selfish too want peace and rest in a world that has greedily taken everything you have ever wanted
We are not selfish we don’t want to leave our loved ones, but every day I see no end too the pain,the suffering,the hopelessness.
We are not selfish, we are the victims of the cancer people call life. And as the days go by I die both physically and emotionally. Until one day I know I will break.
Last nite I was so upset, i was more than ready to kill myself. Instead of hurting myself, I decided to just wait another day. I went to sleep.
when I woke up, I was still upset, but I had calmed down. I just wanted to stay in bed all day but I couldnt, I had to go to work. I’m suicidal most days, but when it comes to work, Im too fucking responsible.
Right now I’m just as upset as yesterday, but I’m just going to sleep hoping that tomorrow is less annoying
First of all, since this is my first post, I would like to thank the dear reader for its time reading this at all!
First about me…I am 20 years old, and attend university where I study engineering. Relationships never worked out for me. Long distance was the one that really lasted more than a year. Anyhow, I do not want to talk about my break up or anything like that. It is not relevant.
What I would like to talk about are opportunities. What are you doing with your life? Why are you still here? What makes you keep going?
You are in the middle of […]
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/Alive-Out-Of-Habit.mp3
Why should it be taboo to kill ourselves? Just because other people don’t want it doesn’t make it abnormal. I don’t understand why people want to continue living with all the shit they have to deal with. Wake up, go to school/work/, eat, sleep, rinse, repeat. I’ve had relationships, but to me they’re more trouble than they’re worth. I don’t want to have kids. I care about my family, but that’s a tiny portion of life. It’s not enough to keep me going because I still have to be me every day and it’s exhausting. The rest is work, eat, sleep, fuck, etc. That’s […]
You beat me down,
You struck me low,
Don’t know how far you think I can go.
You don’t know what it’s like to be me,
Look through my eyes and you will see,
How hurt I am,
You don’t give a fucking damn,
I’d rather die than listen to another lie.
All I ever wanted was your love,
Doesn’t seem that you have enough.
Can’t you see it’s killing me inside,
I’m sure you’ll be sorry once I’ve died.
Today my ‘father’ found out I was hospitalized three weeks ago. I had been keeping this from him because, honestly, I felt he didn’t deserve to know. A friend at the time had abused my trust, called the police on me, and I was sent to the hospital and kept there due to the fact I had cuts on my arm. Fresh cuts. I was put in therapy and am back on medication, which I am grateful for. I just wish the situation hadn’t panned out as it had.
I digress. He noticed I was talking about my medication online and he asked me what I […]
I now it may sound arrogant and selfish and i do apologise in advance, but i just wanted to see whether I am the one and only who feels like that. Basically, I often read the posts here and i come across really sad stories, some people go through really tough times in their life and i do fully empathise with them. Â In my case, I Â cant say that I have major problems in my life meaning, i have a partner, ok job, few friends etc. So nothing really major to report.
However, I constantly feel like ending my life as i do not see any […]
i was on a bridge earlier just looking down, i hadnt even decided whether i wanted to jump or not. im an alcoholic and was in a serious state as i suffer from anxiety and depression. as i was looking down, crying, someone who i had never even seen before drove past and shouted out there car to me, they told me to jump. i really didnt know what to do after that. i eventually managed to get home but all i have done since is drink, and im scared
Hi. I’m Dolly. I’m going to attempted to explain ME through things that I hate.
Enjoy.
I hate when people say if you wanted to die you would have killed yourself already.
I hate when people think I’m too pretty to REALLY commit suicide.
I hate when I try to talk to someone about my world it doesn’t seem important.
I hate when my boyfriend beats me. Then makes me prostitute after.
I hate being his prostitute.
I hate when an abusive step dad goes”unnoticed”
I hate animal abusers.
I hate that my friends can commit suicide but I can not.
I hate when my boyfriend slaps me […]
I don’t want anyone’s pity, that’s not why I post on this site, this is just the only place where I can put down anything
So basically, typical depressed male teenager story, plus a few details
Anyway, I just…I’m lost, I spend most of my time alone, even though I fear isolation, though I’m welcoming it more and more. I was crying during lunch today at school because somebody came up to me and wanted to know what was wrong, and how they could help. But they can’t. I know this is vague, I’ve never been one for details, I don’t talk to people much. Honestly the […]
“Maybe if you go to bed you’ll feel better in the morning” is literally just the human version of “Have you tried turning it off and back on again?”
just came across this. wanted to know your thoughts on it because a lot of people get this kind of response.
Is this what you wanted me to do, to hurt myself again?
I think that it’s worth it
I’m not sure if I should be afraid, right now
All I know is this life is a lie you made
I will not let me go
I will stay here alone
You are what gave me hope
Now I have no home
But I’m not leaving
Aren’t you the one that pushed me over, left with all these holes?
I think you’re perfect
I can’t decide who was right or wrong, but I’m sure
With all these bruises blame, it must’ve been you
Hurt me harm me
I’m […]
I just wanted to say thanks, for every one who wanted to help me on here. I’m sorry it was all in vain though. I’m not completely set on the idea quite yet, but if you don’t hear from me, it’s because I’ve killed myself. Hopefully tonight. Maybe I’ll take a bath, cut my arms, take every pill in the house, and put a belt really tight around my neck and somehow strangle myself. Think that’ll work?
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the […]
Hey….never have seen this site till today. I was glad to find it. Glad to know im not the only one as I think some times I am. I don’t even know where to start. I guess the beginning will do – I am 47 – male – and very lost. I was adopted when I was 2 months old. Never thought that would become a issue but it has reared its ugly head. My family seemed ok…had nothing to judge it by – my earliest memory was I would say 1 and a half to 2 years old. its when my mom walked me […]
I made a mistake today. I’ve made a lot of mistakes. Today was just another one, an additional one. I had been getting closer and closer, further and further, and I reached it. Not entirely though, it was the beginning of the end. I stopped at the beginning. It would make Him unhappy, completely torn and deeply upset. I love Him. I do. But, sometimes I get frustated in my life. My whole life is filled with frustration, 2/3 of it.
I work, and work. Oh, and wait ! … I work. I go to the university, I go to work, I have to go […]
I hope it’s the same crowd of people. Most likely its not. It’s been almost a year or 2. Oh well, i’d like to continue my story.
I got pregnant in June. At the time it was the worst thing to ever happen to me. My boyfriend and I were fighting and I was thinking about suicide every night. Sitting on the bathroom floor with knees to my chest like in the movies. Bawling my eyes out with him only a room away knowing that he could care less.
I smiled when I saw the pregnancy test. It was all so bittersweet. I always wanted […]
Oh hey, look at that, I’m here again.
Great.
I was dating the perfect guy for me. He had faults, but I was crazy attracted to him and regular sex helped me get over my addiction to masturbating. And then he broke it off, over THINKING I had an sti, and not trusting me even though I was crazy loyal to him.
And that’s not it, I’m doing bad at school for the first time in my life. I told my teachers I was suicidal to get out of a test, I’ve never missed a test of my own volition. Ever.
I miss holding him, and cuddling, and doing […]