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Never Loved

by Thanatos.Nykthos 8/4/2022

written by Thanatos.Nykthos

Looking to golden lights, disoriented by gossamer affection

You never loved me- lie no more. Leave me or love me, I shan’t stand for your façade any longer. I see truth, I knew from the genesis of your sin, it held no virtues.
You called my light delusion, and you called my patience an unchecked ego. When I spoke clearly at last, your shell crumbled, you held no quarter to the lies before which you had brought forth against me. You say it “I love you not, I care nothing for you however you shall live.” And so it was laid plain.

8/4/2022 1 comment

My cuts and my voice

by NoMoreHopeLeft 4/27/2016

written by NoMoreHopeLeft

Damn.
Someone saw it. A classmate of mine saw the cuts. Actually – thank god – just one, and also not my deepest one.. – thank God for it –
Well she was asking like: “Wow, this looks pretty much like you cut yourself, hahaha! Where’d you get this from?!”
And I, just desperately trying to bring her away from this thought, as I never want anyone to see, especially not her, I dunno, I kinda don’t trust her really, (don’t wanna sound mean though, but unfortunately I have a problem with trusting anyway…), was like: “Huh, where the hell did I got this from?!” […]

4/27/2016 5 comments

Weak

by Drowning 3/25/2016

written by Drowning

I really don’t know how I used to purge it’s so fucking hard now mayb because I’m getting older or weaker ? I have lost the will to live so I guess the will power has gone to so unless a miracle happens or I get it right next time I’m going to be fat and depressed no i won’t let that happen il kill myself before that happens hope I get the strength to get it right because watching my weight gain slowly is like a slow suicide in its self And people say things get better being alive is a living hell !!!

3/25/2016 0 comment

by lusal 8/4/2015

written by lusal

This feels weird, I don’t usually talk about this. I don’t want to die anymore, at least not all the time like i did before, but i don’t want to live either. I was in a really dark place about 6 years ago when I was close to ending my life, the only thing that kept me from actually doing it was fear of spending eternity in hell. I got help, it got better for a while I thought that part of my life was over, just a phase, but it wasn’t I still have some of those feelings left over, and it’s hard.

My parents […]

8/4/2015 2 comments

Weak

by WiltedRoses88 2/8/2015

written by WiltedRoses88

If I were to describe myself in one word it would be just that: weak. I hate myself so much I can’t stand to look in the mirror everyday. I hate myself for allowing all of these awful things to happen to me. If I would have just listened to my gut instinct and walked away from a lot of situations (including meeting you), I wouldn’t be in this position right now. I hate you and more importantly, I hate myself for not staying away from you. You have completely wrecked every part of my life and I know that it gives you an immense […]

2/8/2015 4 comments

3 More Days…

by Ghost9er 10/28/2014

written by Ghost9er

I simply don’t know how to feel about this anymore… I’ve been planning this for nearly a month now… And now that my time has come, I don’t know if I”m ready… no one from my family would miss me, none of them even care about me. If anything, they hate everything about me, from the sound of my voice to the fact that I exist. I’ve already tried countless times before, why is it that this time seems so much more difficult… I don’t know whats wrong with me anymore… it doesn’t matter though, because, this time I’ve planned the whole thing out, and […]

10/28/2014 6 comments

Hiding scars

by curlylion720 10/8/2014

written by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]

10/8/2014 6 comments

Madness

by dropdead_96 9/16/2014

written by dropdead_96

I can’t handle it anymore, i just want to end my life, I’m a mess, and I’m a mean person with everyone I love.

My dad just die in 2011, and it hits me so hard, and I was so angry, because he never was there for me, even after all, I loved him, he’s my dad and I just wanted him with me to protect me.

I almost commit suicide because of that, and it didn’t happen because I was afraid, I’m still afraid.

After three years, now my mom has a boyfriend and he’s a kind person, he has two daughters, the younger one is so […]

9/16/2014 0 comment

Survival of the fittest

by enola 8/26/2014

written by enola

I am much too frail for this world.

I see I am alive for nothing. I don’t think I’d ever be able to kill myself, but most of the time it feels as if I am sticking around only to please the people that care for me. I am not living for me, I am living for them.

I am also accustomed to existing. Old habits die hard.

8/26/2014 0 comment

Emptiness

by Clumsyrella 6/27/2014

written by Clumsyrella

I feel numb from my head to my toes. It hurts to breath, to wake up every morning and realize I’m still alive. I’m sad or maybe even just a little bit depressed. I cant want to stand but I don’t know how much more I can take….

My friends try to cheer me up, but sometimes… It just isn’t enough. After all
“Happiness is fleeting.”
I honestly don’t know what to do anymore… I don’t know why I’m still breathing….
I try so hard to improve but then I always end up failing… I can never stop being a failure, a stupid wide eyed disappointment…

I […]

6/27/2014 14 comments

I Am Finished

by marine105 6/25/2014

written by marine105

I wish to terminate the continuance of a certain existence,

though it is obvious that the identity is of someone regarding myself,

I do not wish to expose the exact identity of the person[s] involved.

So I will simply yield this Inquisition:

Why not?

The hour grows short; hasten your responses

6/25/2014 7 comments

Advice, Information, and.. maybe…help?

by Cardio_respiratory_stop 6/7/2013

written by Cardio_respiratory_stop

Hello! I’m writing this in order to get some help, and be sure that i’ve made the right decision.

I wrote this to another person on another website:Â <<<Â I feel the same as you do/did “Every day I wake up feeling terrible! I don’t want to die,i just don’t want to live like this.” and i felt it since i was your age 17/18 and then i was dreaming about killing myself but i talked to others and i was to weak to take my own life so i said that i’ll wait, that things will get better, two years have passed and i had a big […]

6/7/2013 2 comments

one reason why.

by b1urr 1/13/2013

written by b1urr

(might be triggering)

i’d say it began in 6th grade; they made me weak by pointing out my flaws. i had thought,Â why would anybody want me if i look like this? i began giving away my food because i didn’t want to be fat, i never smiled because i didn’t like my teeth, i didn’t talk much because i didn’t like what i often said. they persuaded me to hate myself.

so when he would pay attention to me, in 7th grade, i felt happy. too happy. he was the first to see my scars. he told me he cared. but he only wanted one thing..

it wasn’t […]

1/13/2013 1 comment

maybe it’s all in my head.

by b1urr 1/4/2013

written by b1urr

i can feel myself gaining weight
i can feel the escalating urges to self mutilate
i can feel the loss of sanity
of minor happiness
i feel the pain that shouldn’t exist
i’m weak
too weak to kill myself
but too weak to give no fucks and live
this aching is tearing at my wounds
these thoughts drowning me
i’m suffocating by the sorrow that surrounds me
alone i’m feeling all of this
yet, alone, i feel nothing

… because i’m worthless.

1/4/2013 2 comments

Weak and feeling pathetic

by Peace 8/2/2009

written by Peace

I have experienced too much pain and to little joy in my young life.

i have always feelt unease with myself since aslong as i remember but 3 years ago i had enough, enough of people mocking me or making me a laughing stock, i started to do something i never thought i’d do and that was planing my own suicide and even writing a big letter to people (Family at most) and 4 people that i have keep in touch with thanks to a suicidal chat.

Today its gone 3 years since i planed my suicide but i still havnt done it, im overwhelmed with guilt […]

8/2/2009 7 comments