I’m so fucking tired of waking up every night. It takes everything in me to just go to work (I work nights). The only thing I look forward to is sleeping all weekend. Got some bars so it shouldn’t be a problem as long as people will leave me alone. Happy go lucky people make me fucking nauseous. My mind just doesn’t work that way. I see the negativity in everything. People always say to focus on the things that make you happy. I can’t make anyone understand that there is nothing that makes me happy except the fact that I have a bottle of […]
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i hate my life, it sucks, everything goes wrong but i guess im skipping a bit too far ahead so here from the start; when i was a little girl my mom and dad split up, he cheated we never spoke they never spoke, growing up he wasent there they never bothered then when i was about 7 he appeared again started wanting to see us we did an had frequent contact this was amazing, i never got along with his wife, i hated her and she had a strong opinion on me, this made it hard to see my dad again , again we […]
That long dragging weekend feeling
I start most weekends with drinking a bottle of wine, then I have another one and then another. I take a few Xanax and a Vicodin or two. Next thing I know its Monday morning and time to go to work again. When I don’t do that I do meth so I can forget about my life. Yet every Monday I get cleaned up and go back to my job that pays me 300k a year. Three of my friends have killed themselves. I have tried at least twice. Now days I rather dull things with liquor and Xanax or meth. So I can get up […]
Hi Guys,
I will be going on a trip this weekend. I will be back on Sunday. I might post on Sunday. We’ll see.
Have a good weekend!
My best friend is having a birthday party in a couple weeks but it’s at a water park. My thighs have pink raised scars and there is no hiding those in a bikini. I’m going to try different ways to cover them up and if that doesn’t work I guess will be “sick” that weekend. I would feel really shitty about doing that though. I never thought I would live long enough to have this problem. It’s not like I want to put a damper on everyone’s day by explaining my scars. I hate getting attention. Surprise everyone I’ve found a religion that requires me […]
will write my notes and clean my room this weekend. it’s over. it’s time for my exit soon.
My best friend (were both girls) this weekend kissed me. We both like each other a lot. And we know about it. But i just told her lets not do it again Because i don’t wanna ruin our friendship. I just ruined it though by telling her shes mad at me now. Its hurts a lot. I ruined our friendship, I ruined it. Shes the best thing that’s ever happened to me. But she deserves better. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. No one will ever be able to love me. Â I push everyone away. I’m a terrible person. Her heart […]
on dec 3rd of 2004 2 years after my grandmother past away and i was dealing with bullies, school, and family problems.My brother just told our parents that he was gay, now you can imagine what mom and dad were going through, well that night they had went out and i was home alone i found a box cutter and hid it in my room. well after mom and dad left i wrote the note made sure i told them i loved them, and i filled the sink with hot water and put both wrist in the water after grabbing the box cutter and placing […]
im actually so sick and tired of the problems i have with my boyfriend. All he seems to do is blame me for everything but i honestly cant see what i have been doing wrong. Then he just chooses to ignore me instead of actually telling me what i have done wrong. We havent seen eachother in 3 weeks because he is always ‘busy’, but hopefully i should be seeing him this weekend but im really doubting that. I really don’t know what i should do? Any suggestions?
Hi Guys,
Sorry for the late notice… But I am disconnecting from the world to go Dog Sledding. 😀 So I will NOT be post today or tomorrow. I will post Sunday though. Have a good weekend!!! And don’t worry about me! 😀
You ask :” Hey how are you?”
and just for once I wish I could just say: ” I’m miserable and I wanna die. Every breath is a challenge! My loneliness is endless and there is this black hole at the bottom of my heart that seems to eat away at my soul” Oh what a load off my chest. JUST FOR ONCE, to be completely honest.
But instead I smile and I say”fine!, how are you?”
which is your cue to tell me all about your wonderful weekend. It is all you wanted anyway. I think even if I tell anyone how i truly feel, they […]
Finally, weekend! I don’t quite know if I really like it or not, but it just sounds nice 😛 Today was a busy day for me, because I went to my grandma. I really didn’t want to, but after long talks with my parents I let myself be persuaded. We went by car, we never do that because she lives like 1,5 Miles away. The reason was that I am afraid to start cycling, because I haven’t in 2 months because of a knee injury. Still we stayed for only half an hour, I really didn’t liked it. All the questions from my grandma like: […]
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