Finally, weekend! I don’t quite know if I really like it or not, but it just sounds nice 😛 Today was a busy day for me, because I went to my grandma. I really didn’t want to, but after long talks with my parents I let myself be persuaded. We went by car, we never do that because she lives like 1,5 Miles away. The reason was that I am afraid to start cycling, because I haven’t in 2 months because of a knee injury. Still we stayed for only half an hour, I really didn’t liked it. All the questions from my grandma like: “Do you allready feel better?? Yes, right? It has to.” And it’s just so annoying. I know she means it good, but it’s just a difficult situation because she won’t ever understand it. Now I’m laying in my bed and I have to sleep, because it’s already 1 am here in The Netherlands. I really don’t want to, because I know I’ll sleep really bad because I do that every night. Hopefully tonight will be a tolerable night for me.
Goodnight everybody!! <3
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Hope you get a good night’s sleep. 🙂
I don’t sleep either unless I take meds or drink and still wake up at 2am and don’t sleep until 4am or 5am. Then it’s time to get up for work, and i’m exhausted and depressed. My grandmother was my life; the only person in the whole world who thought I was wonderful. My mother thought I was the biggest screw-up in the whole entire world, but my grandmother . . . I miss her so much.
@Dave_N,
No, I haven’t sleep well. Every night I’m awake till at least 3 am, and in a normal week I have to wake up at 7 am from monday till friday and in the weekend at 9 am. And if I finally sleep, I wake up all the time and lay awake for half an hour. It’s really frustrating. I only sleep good after 6 am and before 8 pm.
@Lost Margaret,
I know it’s really hard if you can’t sleep, especially if you have to wake up at 4 or 5 am. How do you keep that up??
Sleeping is impossible when you do not have inner peace. The only advice i can give is to breathe calm, make yourself comfortable and dont have any deep thoughts because that will keep your mind too busy..but i assume that you already knew that!
I am a night person so i do not even try to sleep before 3 am ;p
you’re absolutely right about grandma but that goes for everyone, how can u answer a simple question like that with the complicated feelings you are feeling. it is not like math when there is always straightforward answer. so do not worry too much for your answer..
Roelofarendsveen? I’ve never been there but i know where its is.
I’m for the weekend in Nieuw-vennep visiting my brother, away from my problems..
I would also really like to meet you, so hang in there a little longer!
@Boot777,
Thanks for your reply, I already knew that about inner peace. I often listen music whil laying in bed, because it gives me inner peace. I guess it’s just a vicious circle that I have to break through, but I don’t know how and it’s really difficult.
Do you think you can go back to Hoofddorp with all the snow and stuff?? I hope so 😉 I have a question: Have you ever post something here? Because I was looking for it (I would like to read it) but I couldn’t find something. If yes, would you please say the date of post, so I can easily find it?? Thank you boot777, and you also have to hang in there a little longer 😉