Everything is better to me after some Crown Royal, Doobs and whatever else. I hope that anyone that visits this site can find an escape from the pain and get through this! Every second that goes by we are closer to death (like it or not)!!! 🙂
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When given a choice to have the best life on earth or not be born at all, what will you choose?
This is a close one for me, but I think I’ll choose not to be born at all. You simply can’t deprive someone of something who is oblivious. On the other hand, once you are here on earth there is bound to be things that you can’t do and can’t have. You can’t break the law or you will go to jail, you can’t do whatever you want in a relationship or you will hurt the other person, and you definitely can’t walk through walls or teleport from one place to another. […]
Ultimatum
The Leo, Constellation
Is it the Monarch, Butterfly
This is for me and you too, Oracle
Do you want to assist my path, like warriors
For the healing, pilgrimage
I’ve sought all the possibilities
From the church to, the next
This is it, this is it, collaboration
Fortification, of the golden, Kings and Queens
Do you want to assist my path, like warriors
I’m the only that is so far, away
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Here’s an article about the positive effects of negative emotions. I think it’s good to remember that no matter how bad you feel, the feeling was designed to help you fix or compensate for whatever is troubling you. Killing yourself is not the solution…
http://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/201412/beyond-happiness-the-upside-feeling-down?tr=MostViewed
A lot of the time I project a facade of intelligence, I’ve been told I write well, that I can be eloquent and articulate at times, but I’m actually genuinely stupid. Math and anything pertaining to basic logic is beyond my comprehension, like I’ve literally failed Algebra twice in a row and I still don’t get it, I don’t understand much about math beyond arithmetic at all. Complex subjects that require thoughtful analysis and ability to make sense of information are beyond me, I struggle to understand anything when it’s not spelled out to me, and even then I still don’t get it. I’ve been […]
So if you check my posts, you’ll see that a while back, I talked about going on a trip to Europe with a travel partner.
Well that travel partner was a girl I fell madly in love with and someone who promised me that regardless of whatever life threw at us, that we would go to Europe together.
Well that girl cancelled on me.
Well that girl is pretty much going to go live in New York with another guy.
And don’t give me that bullshit about there being a lot of fish in the sea. Because I don’t want to fucking hear it.
Well world. The sixth word has been spoken. […]
Hello..
first of all, i tried to suicide two times by taking pills but i just did not die, so i think i will try again with more pills or i will try to buy a gun or whatever, ill find a way to suicide..
i love a girl that won’t ever ever ever love me, and she is my bestfriend in fact, it hurts like hell, i don’t want to love jer but i just do, i had a lot of sleepless nights thinking about her, im pale because of thinking so much, i really cant stop thinking about it and its killing me, […]
My life has not been exactly what you would call easy. I got charged with a rape I never committed at the age of 20. It shall follow me forever as they put me on the sex offenders registry. I honestly did nothing. Life went on and I fell in love. My ex took my kids and now will not let me see them, I stayed single for a long time, finally found love again, she left me for whatever reasons she might have had. Everyone who knows me really doesn’t like me that much. Judgements and all. Everyday I am reminded of just how […]
a man died and went to hell. after wandering around for a while, he ran across the devil. the man said ” ya know, devil, ive been here for awhile, and its really boring. do you have anything to do down here?” the devil looked at the man and said “why, of course we do. do you like to drink?” the man said “yes, yes i do like to drink”. the devil replied ” on mondays, we drink as much as we want,from dawn to dark, whatever flavor you want,beer, wine, whiskey.” the devil continued,” do you like to do drugs?” the man said ” […]
Can’t sleep
Can’t sleep
Can’t sleep
Can’t sleep
So many Fucking thoughts about stupid fucking bull shit that I shouldn’t even give a fuck about but I do because that’s me and I’m a fucking idiot and I do whatever the fuck my mind tells me because I don’t know how to fucking tell it no… NO!!NO!!NO!!
Why does nothing ever fucking work out?!?! Why is everyone so fucked over in life?! Why do the ass holes and dick fucks get away with everything and the nice people get stuck with the shitty end of the fucking stick!!!! Omg!!!! Fucking shoot me I’m so tired […]
Why is it that everytime I turn around someone’s telling me that I put myself in this place? I dug myself this hole and I’m keeping myself 10feet under.. If I could for one day feel “normal” (whatever society considers that) then I would be in a heart beat but I don’t ask to see think and feel the things I do. I don’t ask for the flashbacks or nightmares and I don’t ask for the emptiness.. But whatever maybe it’s something I deserve maybe and fuck being “normal”
I dont know any of you guys, nor do I know your story/history. I know pain in life has brought us all here.I want everyone of you guys to know I love you and hope that peace love and happiness finds a way in your hearts and minds. We all here seem to be sick, hurt, lonely crippled goods.life has a way of beating the shyt out you.Just know whatever you ve done, whatever you do ,know that I really do care.Im sorry you guys are hurting I really wish it was some way that this was a place of peace amd love for everyone.since […]
I really want to know why people are so fucked up. Why can’t people do whatever the hell they want as long as they don’t invade the rights of others? Things like weed, prostitution, and so on are illegal or taboo, but seriously, why? Why are we told to look down on people who are okay with doing drugs or having sex with tons of strangers? What’s the alternative but working nine to five until retirement and death? Whenever I tell my mother that we should allow people to do what they want, she acts like she’s okay with it, then, if I rephrase the […]
I’m on this site just to put down what’s in my head, because I can never say it out loud. So, I’m probably going to sound really stupid, but whatever. My mom’s really been getting on me about grades lately. I’m an A student, but currently have a B in chemistry and a C in trig, which is a level above my grade. I know she’s just trying to be a good parent, but I just don’t get why it matters. Why does it matter if I have a B and a C? Why would it matter if that prevents me from getting into some […]
It was the straw that broke the camel’s back…I’ve had depression for years. 19 now, 18 last year…
And she was my best friend…And my girlfriend at the time…
And last year…She broke it off with no explanation. I didn’t cry, because I don’t cry, for some unfathomable reason.
We were friends for awhile, but I fucked that up. I was too…Clingy, I guess is the way to describe it. And I don’t even know why. I guess I just needed someone…I never told her about the depression; I thought it would drive her away.
But I drove her away anyway, because I never […]
What would I say? What would they want to hear? What would they want to know? These are a few of the questions that I have about what will happen after I’m gone. Other than that there really isn’t any telling what will happen to whom and how. There are of course the general predictions that we make about those that we know both in our families and out and about what our children will be like when they have fully grown, but aside from all of that, I really don’t care to find out.
In all honesty, I am not too eager to find […]
Does anyone else really dislike activists?
I suppose what I really mean is zealots in general, whether its religious, political, or ideological. Just anyone that is so completely convinced in their own beliefs for any cause that they are totally uncompromising and fanatical about it. Just the self righteous arrogance of it. Obviously we all have our own beliefs and obviously since they are our beliefs we think they are the correct beliefs. If we didn’t think they were correct we wouldn’t believe in them. So I find it annoying when people are so passionate about their own dogma that they constantly have to proselytize about […]
This is my last post, if everything goes well (or horribly wrong, depends on how you see it I guess).
I’m gonna end things this week since some events happened that made me realize the more I prolong things, the worse it’s for me and everyone around me who have to deal with my sorry ass.
I haven’t told anyone but I felt I should just post a little something here. I don’t know.
Anyway. I hope you all the best, whatever the best means for you.
Goodbye
…and the people who frequent it, the drifters, the lurkers, the class-clowns, the drama queens, and everyone in-between. I may not post much, but I read, or at least skim over, most of the posts here. Why do I find what depressed and suicidal people have to say so fascinating? Ugh, idk man. Probably because I’m crazy too. Whatever the case may be, SP has been a weird sort of bastion for me, so I thought I’d throw this out there.
Here’s to Shep, the Kiwi of many names, inspiring many a pondering and many a laugh with thought-provoking posts and witty comments alike. Introduced […]
I get that this site is for suicidal people and all that.. and that’s why i came here. But it’s a place to get help and advice for feeling suicidal now asking for ways to kill yourself. Damn, if you were going to kill yourself, you would have done it already. Suicide is going to hurt and have consequences if it goes wrong either way so there isn’t going to be a painless way. It all hurts in one way or another. But people seem to be mixed up about dying and just wanting rid of the pain.. i thought i wanted to die for […]