Hello..
first of all, i tried to suicide two times by taking pills but i just did not die, so i think i will try again with more pills or i will try to buy a gun or whatever, ill find a way to suicide..
i love a girl that won’t ever ever ever love me, and she is my bestfriend in fact, it hurts like hell, i don’t want to love jer but i just do, i had a lot of sleepless nights thinking about her, im pale because of thinking so much, i really cant stop thinking about it and its killing me, you know? this pain, i really cant take it anymore, its not the only reason to suicide..
my grades are so bad at school, i dont want to study, every time i open a book and start to study i just think about everything, like everything in the world, i just cant study, here is my book beside me, i have a 87 pages exam and from 9 am to 11:40 pm i just studied like 4 pages! i cant tell my parents that i dont want to study, in fact i prefer to die..
also, my friends always leaves, like i get to close to someone and love him/her soooo much but then they just turn into a monster or another person or they just leave without a fucking reason, like what’s wrong with me? these are like the main reasons..
my life is all just about pain, i dont want you ppl to tell me that ill get over it or whatever, i just really want to die, i need you to give an easy way to suicide, please!
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Methods are not allowed (by rule, pills is a stupid method btw). And yeah, you’ll get over it.
The girl you love? You’ll have a hard time remembering her name in 30 years from now. To be more precise; you’ll have a hard time remembering who you where the age you’re now. Your grades at school? I don’t remember mine after only 15 years. Is everything going to be easier? Hell no, but you’ll have a better understanding of it and you will get better at managing it. It is not without reason that I say that your age is most difficult in life..
Have you always had trouble studying? concentrating? I have ADD and that was a big factor. Maybe a possibility to look at? And with time it will get better. The teen years are so hard.
I’m 16 and attempted suicide a few months ago via car exhaust (obviously wasn’t successful). I know you probably don’t want to hear encouragement, just as I felt a few months ago. But I had all of the same feelings as you. In my case, it was that I was suffering from an undetected ADD. I had been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, but had no idea about the ADD. My medication never worked and my doctor couldn’t figure out why I could not feel any happier. My tutor suggested to my parents that I get tested, and the results for ADD came back positive. Now that I am on medication for this, I do not struggle academically, which has taken a lot of stress out of my life and greatly reduced my feelings of depression and anxiety. In truth… I do still feel sad often, but I can assure you that there are things worth living for. Your parents are probably like mine:
– very high expectations
– not very sensitive/understanding
– new to this
… but you need to at least try to explain to them how you feel (whether or not you include the stuff about your friend is your choice). If they are truly like my parents, they will come around and assure you that they are your biggest supporters. Sorry to ramble so long, just hope I could help. Also, I just completely took my friends out of my life. I go to a private school but my town friends, whom I have know and hung out with every weekend for 10-11 years, started changing in high school. They become inconsiderate and self-centered, and they began getting into things that I did not want to associate myself with. It sucks to lose a part of you (trust me I think about it all the time and I hate it), but sometimes it’s for the best. If those kids who left you without explanation were worth your time and energy, they’d still be in your life. They are most likely self-centered teenagers who don’t know the greatness of what they have when they have it. My point is, you and I are alike, and I am at peace right now. Your “ex”-friends do not deserve you. I don’t know you so I’m not gonna lie and say you’re a great person just to butter you up, but the reality is they left without being decent enough to tell you why, and that is THEIR character flaw, not yours. Give it a little bit of time. Why not test what you thought you knew if you’re convinced you’re gonna be leaving this world soon anyways, right? Talk to your parents and explain how you feel. Ask to be tested for lack of concentration or ADHD. Regardless, why not have some fun with the remaining life you have left? And who knows, you might begin to be happy again and you may decide you like it being here.
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