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by dullfox14 1/7/2015

written by dullfox14

Maybe this is my suicide note, maybe it’s not. I don’t know yet. I’m tired of feeling like there isn’t enough for me. I feel like I’m an accidental extra. I’m somebody’s mistake that they didn’t feel like taking care of. Almost 19 years ago two stupid idiot drug addicted teens decided they wanted a baby. 19 years later here I am wishing they hadn’t.

I will admit that right now there are a lot of things for me to be happy about.. but I think I’m too far gone. Too apathetic to them. It’s not enough. I try so hard to hold on to them. […]

1/7/2015 3 comments

not again….

by onkerio 12/27/2014

written by onkerio

Well the voices are bothering me again. I wonder what they want….I guess this means back to rehab I go..you know whats over rated people…. life…. ey but we live it dont we. And we gotto live it. Thats the problem. Its in a way kinda compulsory… even after death theyll keepp at you. Heh… look at that. I babling again

12/27/2014 1 comment

it just gets harder

by E 12/10/2014

written by E

its been a good half a year or something, i lost count, but i really want to cut and idk why i even bother resisting, i just wish i had the courage to press down that much harder. idk whats going on.

12/10/2014 1 comment

I miss you

by All_Time_Low 12/1/2014

written by All_Time_Low

My best friend, my ONLY friend, is dead. Gone. She left me. And I sat there and watched her die. I can’t unsee it . WHY DID YOU TAKE HER FROM ME? WHY HAVE I NOW GOT NO ONE? Stupid car crash. Why did I have to live? I SHOULD BE THE ONE THATS DEAD, NOT HER!!!!

Sara, I will forever love you and I need you. I really need you. I can’t forget you. You are my sister and I don’t understand why you had to go and I get to live.

She is gone. She is not coming back. I’m alone. Not a soul. I […]

12/1/2014 2 comments

I’m Falling

by realeyesrealizereallies 10/13/2014

written by realeyesrealizereallies

I feel so alone in a group of people. I dont know what I have become. I used to be so happy all the time. I used to be so care-free. I honestly dont know what happened. Over the course of 2 years I became so cold. I never let people in (in my personal life) anymore. I don’t want to say I have bipolar depression, but I know that is not the case. But there is something different about me. Everyday is a battle for me. It is become such a battle for me to even get out of bed in the morning. I […]

10/13/2014 2 comments

whats the truth about hanging

by sluthead 10/11/2014

written by sluthead

I have two questions regard death by hanging, suspension , without breaking of the neck. The first question is will you feel anything after losing consciousness ? I know the feeling of lungs heaving must be painful but I want to know if someone would experience it at all, since after 10 seconds or so the person would be passed out. Is it a painful experience? The second question is how loud is the sound of someone suffocating during suspension hanging?? Is it possible for someone to hear, gagging, choking, or lungs heaving while passing? If so from how far away? through a wall? More […]

10/11/2014 9 comments

Being sober makes me depressed.Maybe this Is my time to go home??

by lifeishorrible 10/10/2014

written by lifeishorrible

I don’t get high cause I like to,I don’t even like the tatse of swisher sweets.I get high to get threw the day.I rarely cut anymore but now that’s all I wanna do.Cutting when high Is like a high to a high.Without either one & someone not there Its like whats the point??I am by no means a strong person.I need an escape.Maybe I needa go home??

10/10/2014 1 comment

Why?

by Stuie 10/2/2014

written by Stuie

I just have no drive or motivation in life anymore. Sure I could improve if I found another job or moved to a new location but whats the point? I’ll still spend the next 40-50 years paying off debts, kissing the arse of some twat so I don’t get fired and then eventually die anyway.

10/2/2014 2 comments

whats the point..

by bored2death 10/2/2014

written by bored2death

ughh my life sucks. recently got sober from bad drug addiction..again. went to rehab 6 months, when i get out my ‘gf’ is 5 months pregnant (ya, not mine obviously].. end up relapsing…i still love this girl, she got me on the drugs in the first place….she’s had the kid now, she only calls when she needs something..i always help her out [always been the case]. now shes sober, or so she says… as am i, and she wont talk to me.. i got a new job, she came in the restaurant i manage with her baby daddy not knowing i worked there…just sent me […]

10/2/2014 1 comment

given up

by kateralia 9/1/2014

written by kateralia

I am so beyond lowest of low points that I have given up on everything. I couldnt be bothered showering, brushing my teeth, washing clothes even eating. I don’t sleep one day just so I can sleep through the next. I am in immense pain from my back and my rotting teeth.

I once cared so much about my health and my appearance. Where did it go wrong?

Finally my doctor is listening to me & trying to help. Why now after nearly a year of seeing him, telling him my troubles, what I want to do, does he now want to do something?

I made my very […]

9/1/2014 5 comments

pointless

by shadowmask 8/31/2014

written by shadowmask

I told my bestfriends i think of suicide everynight. Of course i didnt just randomly bring up the suject. They demand to know whats wrong. Then when i tell them they say oh you already told me that. Okay so did you want to know for your health? they didnt even give a fuck. Confiding in other people is pointless

8/31/2014 10 comments

whats wrong with me

by insecure-wreck 8/30/2014

written by insecure-wreck

At times all these emotions n thoughts come.to.mind when I’m hurting or feeling down I hope that someday I do get better but for now I’m just going to have to struggle then but if I can’t endure this anymore I’m going to have to throw in the towel

8/30/2014 7 comments

i give up

by why i dont no 8/10/2014

written by why i dont no

why do i bother aparantly im a lier whats the fucking point in shearing things in a place i thought was safe i give up

8/10/2014 7 comments

can I die in my sleep painlessly?

by feras 8/10/2014

written by feras

I think i reached a point where i know and feel worthless to everyone around me and to myself. whats the point of life anyways? if there is something after death, heck i ve had enough. I would like to take that little voyage.

any ideas how to end this while sleep ?

8/10/2014 2 comments

whats the point…

by PeelASquid 8/7/2014

written by PeelASquid

So Im going to enjoy my last days….. fishing, doing things I enjoy. Fuck all else….. it doesn’t matter. I’ll do things the fuckin way I want to.

8/7/2014 9 comments

Pills and potions

by YukiK 8/5/2014

written by YukiK

getting high to forget my lows. its become a habit for months now. I can’t seem to stop. The longest ive gone without being high had to have been 4 days. I know i have a problem. I just dont care to do anything about it, i mean whats the point?

8/5/2014 3 comments

I never truly enter a good enough title..

by Kailee3 8/2/2014

written by Kailee3

I don’t want to do this, nobody understands that. I just want it all to end, all the pain, all the hurt, all the angry. Nothing seems to be getting better.. All my friends and family make me look like a terrible person because how unhappy i am and how much i want to die.. That’s the reason i haven’t done it, i just cant take this anymore and i don’t know whats wrong with me and why i am sad? I hate talking about my feelings because no one knows what to say to me and they all get so mad because i wont […]

8/2/2014 0 comment

sort it out

by youwouldntrealise 8/1/2014

written by youwouldntrealise

I need to sort myself out. I cant keep feeling like this… I just feel so irritable every second of the day. I have tears permanently in my eyes, just sitting here doing nothing angers me. But then I have no choice- weather is crap, friends are busy and I honestly dont want to talk to them. I always feel I have to make the effort with all of them, To be happy because if im not it means either being called miserable or having to explain myself when even I dont know whats happening.

Im so passive.

I just want to go back to college. […]

8/1/2014 0 comment

Suicide This, Suicide That

by BoyofChagrin 7/13/2014

written by BoyofChagrin

I think suicide is just about the only thing I think about anymore. I doubt if I will commit any time soon as I want to record some of my thoughts to leave behind so my family knows whats been going on right in front of them. The reality for me now is that someday I will die by my own hand and nothing can change that. I don’t even have a story, all I am is a middle-class white teen with too much time on his hands. *sigh* Heading off to work, so I can think about suicide while people around me think about […]

7/13/2014 8 comments

Violence

by Clumsyrella 6/29/2014

written by Clumsyrella

I know its wrong to want to hurt someone… But why do I feel so strongly about it? Every time I hear SHE’s with the man I love (my ex)…. I want nothing but to rip her eyes out and slice her throat…. I don’t know whats wrong with me…. I’ve never wanted to hurt someone up until now…

6/29/2014 3 comments

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