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Having a breakdown

by EvilKitten 10/15/2014

written by EvilKitten

I’m freaking out about not having enough hours at work, not having a place to live, not having money to pay my bills, not being able to find a second job, and having to do all this shit alone.

This is too much shit for one person to handle. Enough is enough. I seriously feel so freaked and panicked and anxious about everything that I wanna just go jump off a bridge and be done with this shit.

You win, Universe. You wanted to see how much fucking shit one person could really take, and this is it. I’m fucking done, you win, I’m not playing anymore.

Thank […]

10/15/2014 4 comments

There’s a fa**** around

by Bisban 10/15/2014

written by Bisban

The end remain the idle

See all you can do is sit

I need you, I need you

I am the frog but don’t kiss

I want to be a ninja

I want to stack, win battles at comicon

Will I be ever back in the bewilder

My football-helmet and my inflatable baseball-bat

In my chain biting the metal wire

I’m listening to bebop but retrograde in activation

10/15/2014 1 comment

If I kill myself I still dont win.

by lifeishorrible 9/14/2014

written by lifeishorrible

If I kill myself I feel like I still don’t win.People are still gonna talk about me like did Carlos really kill himself??What a *****,what a wuss.& my brother??He’s gonna talk non-stop shit about me.I don’t know why he hates me.I don’t love him cause he’s my brother,I just him love & It hurts my heart to know he hates me.To everyone I’m sorry I’m a fuck up.I’m sorry I suck at everything I do.

9/14/2014 4 comments

the whispers of my sins

by theWhispersOfMySins 8/29/2014

written by theWhispersOfMySins

I watched the sun go down today
And I felt a surge of tears
With a sense of desolation
I was overwhelmed with fears

I saw my hope on the horizon
And I saw it fade away
With desperation I tried to believe
That there would be another day

And then suddenly I realized
That my hope was still there
It was just clouded over
With my feelings of despair

Then I began to wonder
Why am I still here
And in my own self doubt I saw
The creation of all my fear

In order to see the sun come up
I would have to search and find

8/29/2014 4 comments

Hurting

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

I cry, but I shed no tears
I’m hurting, but I’m not bleeding
I’m dying, but my body’s surviving
I’ve been broken, but my scars don’t show

I’m withering away, but my body’s still ageing
I’ve lost sight of a future, but I am not blind
I cannot voice my angst, but I am not mute
I feel numb inside, but I can still feel my heart beating

I’ve lost my motivation, but I am still walking
I cannot breathe, but my lungs are still functioning
I cannot feel, but my pain still taunts me
I’ve lost the war, but I am still fighting my battle

8/25/2014 3 comments

“sit by the ocean…..”

by PeelASquid 8/13/2014

written by PeelASquid

Sit on the sand,

No other hand.

Sit there alone,

Heart cold as stone.

Sit there at night,

Have no more fight.

Sit there and think,

Sit on the brink.

Sit there and hear,

The ocean real clear.

Sit there under the moon,

Time to go soon.

Ocean is rough,

Life is too tough.

Sit there, ready to jump in.

Sit there now,

Death it will win.

Stars in the sky,

Don’t want to cry.

Just make it real fast,

So the suffering won’t last.

8/13/2014 2 comments

It just never ends does it

by Infectious208 7/29/2014

written by Infectious208

Like everyone here, im on the ragged edge. I watched a kitten last week for my (gf/ex/dont know where were at anymore) while she was on vacation with her family. Immediately I bonded with that little kitty and it actually helped me to feel a little bit better about things. Just having that companion to come home to. Knowing she was waiting for me. Her chasing me around the house attacking my leg. So I told my mom and sister about it and asked them to keep an eye out for one for me thinking maybe it will help. Today, after work, my sister told […]

7/29/2014 7 comments

This is TIND closing out for the last and final time.

by ThisIsNoDemocracy 7/19/2014

written by ThisIsNoDemocracy

As I read the stories about all the horrible things some of you have experienced, it makes me think about why those things have happened. It is NOT because you are ugly. It is NOT because you arent worth it. It is NOT because you aren’t kind, or smart, etc. There are people out there who are just bad people. They see your sadness as a vulnerability and take advantage of that to poison you with hatred. Do not let them win, do not let them turn your sadness into bitterness. Love always stands strongest in the end. This will be the last time that […]

7/19/2014 12 comments

Wrote this for a friend; Thought it may also belong here, for anyone in the same position as her…

by OursIsTheFury 7/13/2014

written by OursIsTheFury

… And the fact that you’re still alive after 9 years of depression and 8 years of suicidal thoughts proves to me that you’re strong. Strong enough to keep going, and strong enough to kick depression’s ass.

Depression makes people wage wars against themselves between the happy and the sad, and sometimes the sad wins, but not always. Often times, people can overcome the sadness and the depression. Sometimes it’s a short war, but most of the time it’s not.

Not your’s. Your’s has lasted nearly a decade, and it may last a whole ‘nother, but in the end, I know you’ll win, and I know it’ll […]

7/13/2014 0 comment

What is the goddess evocation **

by Bisban 6/19/2014

written by Bisban

Oracle, where are you. The apex, so- so long ago.
I have done my time. Now, faith is in the hand.
Do not defect me any longer. You, touch of life.
Grand goddess. Twist the codex, today. One, for transcendence.
A war of heaven versus hell, lost, our beginning.
It makes no sense. Fish, a world without a true leader.
Oh, other woman, take us to the land.
Carrying the boulder, of the world. Heal, to become strong.
But here, but now, forever lost.
Born to protect the world, now the devil’s.
We’ve exiled your alien, do not come back to our planet.
The star […]

6/19/2014 0 comment

Nearing the end

by Minstrel 6/11/2014

written by Minstrel

I’m so very tired.

Having battled depression for at over 40 years now and still feeling like I’m in the same place I started.Â Alone – divorced after too many years of a bad relationship and now my latest SO decided that I wasn’t worth the effort and took up with someone else.Â I’m unemployed and unemployable, my skills and my background being obsolete.Â I make myself get out of these 4 walls only with the greatest of effort and my energy is nearly depleted.Â I’m tired of fighting battles I can’t win.Â I’m sick of feeling like the world is just rolling over me every […]

6/11/2014 3 comments

by Remnant The Unbroken 6/1/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

Cant let it win. Get it together…come on you fuck, I can do this

oh God this is so draining

6/1/2014 2 comments

Blood stains

by The_red_fairytale 5/30/2014

written by The_red_fairytale

Red against white, who will win?
Silver metal, my deadly sin, some days I don’t wanna win.
Feeling high, feeling numb, lost again in this-
Eternal bliss.

But the scars that cover my wrist are so damn hard to over come.
Hearing the words they say, seeing the looks they give
Telling myself I’m not good enough.
I’m worthless, that I’m not allowed to breath-
Don’t say I’m not, don’t tell me I’ll be fine.
I don’t wanna see the light, at least not for tonight.

I wanna be dreaming of a lost happiness
Of someone loving this crazy broken person
Of not being shattered

5/30/2014 6 comments

by chaz7311 5/23/2014

written by chaz7311

Idk why but I wanna fight ppl not so ill win but so they’ll win

5/23/2014 2 comments

the favorites game.

by Kallian 4/7/2014

written by Kallian

At work I’m supposed to fill out these safety cards, basically saying that I saw a co-worker doing something safe or unsafe. Theres a drawing where you can win a gift card and other stuff. Well, I’ve got to fill out two a week at least. I already did a “safe”one, so today I just wanted to get my “unsafe” card out of the way. Well, guess who I happened to see go outside without his orange vest on. What’s that? My ex, you say? You’re quite right, you smart cookie, you. So I write him up the card, give the info half to my […]

4/7/2014 1 comment

ST…

by CrimsonDream 4/4/2014

written by CrimsonDream

Although you may think of me

as a Suicidal Teen. I don’t think of myself like that.

I think of myself as trying to be saved cause I know there’s still that

one slither of hope.

So next time you see me know I’m really trying here,

and not just letting my fears win ; there pretty damn close to

overcoming me if I do say so myself.

4/4/2014 2 comments

Fear.

by purplepain 3/31/2014

written by purplepain

I think I’m on the verge of having an anxiety attack right now, I need to write this down to calm my nerves.
Just when I think things are going okay, everything goes downhill somehow. My classes are going all wrong, I can’t concentrate on my studies, I’m scared of even walking in the streets, I feel watched, observed, I feel inferior to those and everything around me, though I know I’m not.
A few months ago I stopped speaking to a “friend” of mine after she threw another of her little stupid tantrums on me, we’re 18 years old, I’m not a little girl […]

3/31/2014 3 comments

Say It ain’t so

by lifeishorrible 3/24/2014

written by lifeishorrible

I just found out that my ex got married.I’d be lying If I said I’m over her.I’m happy for her tho.I wish her and her husband the best.I just wish I could talk to him to tell him to not fight back cause that Is a fight you will never win haha.their married now,ofcourse he know’s not to haha.I’m just depressed on how things turned out.I should be the one getting married!!haha.I’m the nicest bf she has ever had!!Every other bf she’s had Is bad!!Like her husband has a tattoo on his face.If your gonna get a tattoo on your face then get tear drops […]

3/24/2014 3 comments

My life. Such as it is.

by MrStR34k 3/17/2014

written by MrStR34k

I’m 35, but I’ve been battling with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was a child. I was fat and smart in school. A perfect candidate for ridicule. Which I endured. Home wasn’t much better. My 2 brothers didn’t like me, and my mother is an alcoholic. My father worked all the time and when ever my mom and I would fight, and I tried to talk to my dad about it, I would be told not to since, because I was “trying to pit him against his wife, and she would win every time.” I ran away. When I […]

3/17/2014 15 comments

Disguise…

by CrimsonDream 3/17/2014

written by CrimsonDream

The teardrops run down

And fall off her nose

She cries in dark corners were

nobody goes.

You can follow her tracks

from her eyes to her chin,

Years upon years of letting them win.

And her eyes tell a story

of anger and pain.

You think that’s she’s happy

but just look again.

And the scars in her past

hidden under her clothes

are a roadmap to places that nobody knows.

Her smile is now painted,

shes a master of disguise,

And you can see it […]

3/17/2014 11 comments

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