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Thank you all

by Disposable Human 1/5/2016

written by Disposable Human

Your words eased my pain in my time of need. I missed visitation with my son again today. Partly because of my reactions and anger.

Sorry to my parents that I’m angry. My family was taken from me and you’d rather judge me for my faults than be happy that I toughed out this loneliness as long as I did. I miss my son, and I miss my pug.

Sorry, I guess I’m just a coward, but I give up. I hope you’re all proud of what you’ve done.

Loaded Sig Sauer P250, hollow point 9mm Luger round, aiming for the roof of my mouth/tonsils, wish me luck. […]

1/5/2016 5 comments

i failed:(

by passionfruit3 1/5/2016

written by passionfruit3

I failed again :(all they did was forcefully pump pills from my stomach and ship me off to a mental hospital for three days worth nothing. I drew a picture on the wall with a girl with a noose and they thought to keep me longer but mom wanted me home. Wish she would have left me there.now i have to contemplate doing it again cause its not gonna stop till im dead.but i wish it would. Pills are useless.i need to be more creative. I will try drinking dishwasher soap this time . though I don’t know when. And i hope these are my […]

1/5/2016 5 comments

Protected: I’m extremely happy… :-) :-) :-)

by daitya1989 12/31/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/31/2015 5 comments

To Be or Not To Be

by InhalingAnxiety 12/31/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Today at work it is a casual attire day, so I wore my To Be or Not To Be soliloquy sweater. We had a client come in and our receptionist is on holiday, so I am the backup, and I am to greet and take care of the few clients that come in on New Years Eve. They saw my sweater and proceeded to ask if I had it memorized.

Is that the point of it, though? To be simply memorized? To be able to vomit up the words upon request? Why not ask me what it means? Why doesn’t the real point of it matter? […]

12/31/2015 2 comments

Bleu Edmondson | Finger on the Trigger

by Chrissyjo 12/30/2015

written by Chrissyjo

http://www.cmt.com/videos/bleu-edmondson/404366/finger-on-the-trigger.jhtml

First, it’s kind of country. Sorry about that. But there’s a piece in the song that says:

‘And Lord, sometimes I wonder if you’re even there

Cause my burden is back-breaking and it’s all that I can bear’

It really speaks to me.

Although I don’t post or comment much, I visit every day and I want to wish everyone a happy and peaceful 2016. 🙂

12/30/2015 0 comment

I’m back to wanting to die. Same reason, there’s no hope.

by tiredthoughts 12/26/2015

written by tiredthoughts

I’ve been putting it off the suicidal thoughts or attempts. I just wake up and live everyday. Hoping, waiting.. For what I know will never come. I relive every possible discussion, decision or thoughts or reasons that I had in my mind that led me to this point. Hope and support that ppl of sp bring. I just live and don’t like it. I try and forget, but I don’t. The memories are trapped inside me of a life with someone that will never happen again. I try and do what support suggests, ask myself if theres any hope. And I know there isnt. Doesnt […]

12/26/2015 2 comments

No wishes.

by Allitends 12/24/2015

written by Allitends

S.P.I.R.I.T.
Spirit, let’s hear it
S.P.I.R.I.T.
Spirit, let’s hear it
Let’s go!

I’ve had enough
There’s a voice in my head
Says I’m better off dead

But if I sing along
A little fucking louder
To a happy song
I’ll be alright

You want to give up
Gave it all that you’ve got
And it still doesn’t cut

But if you sing along
A little fucking louder
To a happy song
You’ll be just fine cause’

Every now and again we get that feeling
And the great big void inside us opens up
And I really wish that you could help
But my head is like a carousel
And I’m […]

12/24/2015 0 comment

Tis the season to be jolly

by Mike Rowedick 12/23/2015

written by Mike Rowedick

Trying to get in the right frame of mind for Christmas.
Here is my Christmas poem.

Christmas Eve Suicide

Twas the night before Christmas
When I’d carry out my wish

In a relaxing hot bath
I’d cut both my wrists

This time I’ll succeed
I’ve planned with such care

Either heaven or hell
Soon I’d be there

My problems and worries
will no longer matter

My tormented life memoirs
written in blood spatter

12/23/2015 10 comments

ya its me

by kumar cherub 12/19/2015

written by kumar cherub

Have u ever seen a loser and talked with him then u can see me . I’m the real loser and gonna end life within some days. So wish me good luck

12/19/2015 1 comment

I Wish

by crockpot14 12/17/2015

written by crockpot14

I wish… I wish I could stop crying myself to sleep. I wish I could stay up during the day and sleep at night. I wish I could say what is bothering me. I wish I was enough. I wish, I wish, I wish… That’s all it will ever be, never a change never a solution because the product of a wish is a miracle and I don’t think I can get one of those.

12/17/2015 1 comment

Peace For The Passed Away

by trophyX 12/15/2015

written by trophyX

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kItuXocJUwk

Whispers in the wind do I only hear when you’re not here

I bought you flowers so a petal falls every time my pedal hits metal

For every risky move I breathe in a soft wish for death

But you already know that…

I ask for nothing but peace for you as your memory lays 6 millimeters under

May the wounds of your fathers stop in the afterlife where answers come

I wasn’t the best grandson but may my intentions and good heart be plain as day

But you already see that…

There weren’t always obvious roads to take in the clouds of confusion

Paths I rejected accepted me wholeheartedly until I was too […]

12/15/2015 1 comment

Force to be alive

by SayuriRosas 12/11/2015

written by SayuriRosas

I just wish to die. But I don’t wanna suffer or go through pain. I just wish for my soul to leave this body. Can it please leave this body. What’s forcing me to be inside this body.
I wish to die on my sleep. When I am sleeping its like the only place where I am able to escape my awake phase.
Its nice!
How about never waking up?And staying there. Forever asleeping.

Why? Why? Do I have to live? I feel force to live in my body.
Exactly whats going on? Why am I put at the center of control by my body to […]

12/11/2015 1 comment

i feel so down

by dolphin 12/10/2015

written by dolphin

12/10/2015 0 comment

Wish I didn’t

by hurtpeoplehurtpeople 12/7/2015

written by hurtpeoplehurtpeople

survive my suicide attempt. Only one. Straight forward attempt. I worry if I try again I won’t be successful and I’ll have created even more problems for myself. But I really wish it would have worked back then so that I didn’t still have to struggle. Cause pain. Live a meaningless life filled with unfinished projects, poverty, sadness, shame, isolation, regret. I just wonder what’s the fucking point to any of it. Why did I survive. My life has no grand purpose. I’m just another shmuck trying to get by, trying to stay sane, powerless, defeated and over it. I want to try again but […]

12/7/2015 7 comments

pity party, table for one.

by spvnalittlelie 12/2/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

(not about/directed at anyone here) what is it with people and getting told i’m feeling sorry for myself? we’re taught that self-pity is bad, but is it really? why must i always have to ‘suck it up’? why can’t i have a moment of weakness to feel bad for myself, and then suck it up? what’s wrong with letting oneself be human? everyone has thrown a pity party for themselves some time in their lives. we all have asked ourselves “why me?” – don’t act like you haven’t. so, why is it okay for everyone else to complain, but when i do it i’m just […]

12/2/2015 5 comments

I hate booz

by HatedGirl 12/2/2015

written by HatedGirl

All my life u drank i wished one day u would give it up but i doubt it i thought that when u had to go to hospital for surgery that u might of stoped u did good for few weeks and then u drank i wish i was born with powers i would make booz disapear

12/2/2015 2 comments

Tired

by woerose 11/30/2015

written by woerose

I am going to kill myself at the end of the week. I have an unpleasant meeting mid-week and I want to give it a day of buffer on either side. I’m not killing myself because of this stupid meeting, and don’t want it to look that way. I *could* leave a note, but justifying my suicide would do more harm than good, and leaving a listing things that *weren’t* a factor would be confusing.

I’m sick of dragging myself through life. I’m in my late twenties and have been suicidal since my early teens. Why I didn’t do it sooner is beyond me. That would […]

11/30/2015 8 comments

Thinking about it

by Blackdog 11/29/2015

written by Blackdog

I’m thinking about doing it tonight. I’ll probably be a coward like the last few times, so don’t worry too much. However, in case of being successful I want to wish you the best. You’re all great human beings who deserve to be happy.
I have a few hours to think about it. But I’m scared. I’m afraid of succeeding. But I’m also afraid of not being successful.

11/29/2015 9 comments

I wish you all continue having what I do not have.

by rainyday 11/26/2015

written by rainyday

I am here to write no about my eternal desire to die, because this is not a day for that. This is a day to be Thankful for others people happiness. This a day for be Thankful for all of you that have wrote me when I have been very close to take my own life. This is a day in which many will have the happiness that I do not have and most probably will never have. A day in which many will be surrounded by family, others by friends.

Happy Thanksgiving for all of you. Wish you that can be have a wonderful day. And […]

11/26/2015 1 comment

I love them but it’s becoming harder and harder

by nextime1988 11/22/2015

written by nextime1988

After lurking for a few months this is my first post here, let me just apologise beforehand for any spelling and grammar mistakes, english is not my native language.

i wish my parents were already dead so i could just go ahead and off myself, they have been so good to me throughout life i feel i can’t put them through the pain and grief of losing their only son.

But i dont know how much longer i can take this.

11/22/2015 8 comments

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