lithium. wow. that is what its come to. modern pharmacology has failed me. i had always thought that lithium was for the real nutcases. so i guess that moniker belongs to me as well. i am scared. reading about it and the side effects are scary. especially the toxicity thing. i am not very good at keeping myself adequately hydrated. drink too much soda and not enough water. don’t want to spend all my time on the john. not very conducive to getting any work done. i quit taking risperdal cold turkey. big mistake. i didn’t think 1 mg was a big deal. a week […]
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I dont think i am depressed anymore.. I am now happily single,i eat well and i am now a bodybuilder.. Wow i think being single is the best thing that ve ever happened to me.. And put to that i now have a new bestie. Still trying to avoid the old one. I think the blocks of my life is falling into place and i am so grateful to God for it..”BABA” thank you.
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wow, two post in one day, guess I got alot to say hunh? people say the teen years are the best years of your life. But to me there full of confusion, having to deal with people who look down on you, rejection, social exclusion, and uncertainty. idk, maybe that’s just me. Anybody, teen or adult, where/are your teen years the best out of your life?
Wow, the last time I was here was a year ago..
& haven’t things got rough!
I was doing so well, I moved to London, started university and fell ridiculously depressed.
I relapsed again and again
I don’t think in control with myself anymore, my head is all over the place and my body is suffering. My bones are becoming weaker and weaker and I can’t cope. I almost broke my ankle recently and because of this my University won’t pass me for my first year because of the time off. I’ve been having tests upon tests to see whether I have a serious illness, they want to […]
wow, what i crazy past few weeks.
lets see, um i week ago, after not being able to talk to my bf for over a week, he actually messaged me back saying that it wasnt going to work out.. that he only asked me out on spur of the moment feelings and that he did care about me… what a load of crap. I actually did cut some more, and i do regret them this time. For once, i actually found someone that i wanted to be with and he dumped me. I feel like absolute shit.
Anyway my 16th birthday is in 25 days and my […]
i can’t fucking believe you! i pour my heart out to you and all you take from it is some imaginary threat? are you paranoid or something? why is it all about you?wow i am stunned. i leave your office sobbing-again. aren’t you supposed to be keeping me from killing myself? instead of throwing fuel on the fire? how can you be so tone deaf? first it was ” am i on the list” ? like i even know you or something. then you are offended by my surprise that you called me at the hut. then you are offended again that i was surprised […]
Wow.
I’m reading some of my posts from last year. I can’t believe how much things have changed.
I’ve become more independent and I think I like it… maybe it’s just that I’ve gotten quieter.
I don’t feel as lonely anymore.
And I think I found a new hobby: writing. But I haven’t done it in awhile…
I’m not quite sure where my future will take me, but all I can say is that I hope it’s full of new adventures and meeting new people.
I do know that I want to change things for anyone who are depressed, suicidal, for people who have developed eating disorders or those who self-harm.
Psychology […]
I thought my life was perfect. Not perfect. “perfect” but perfect enough for me. My parents are annulled but it didn’t matter because I knew they both loved me. During high school I was in a great amazing place, on the honour roll, just got accepted into my first choice college and all the colleges I applied to in fact. My biggest problem then was a huge maybe relationship with my boy best friend.
That ended quickly.
And along with it high school. I was going away now to University. It was both scary and refreshing. I have had more things happen to me in the last […]
I know. I know I’m only 13. I know I can’t be in love. I know I’ve never even gone out with the guy. But I think that, honestly, I love Trevor. But he doesn’t love me. This is why I don’t let my feelings take over. They always make me go back to liking him. He likes Kendall. Well, I mean, he should, considering they go out, but I wish he liked me. I know that everyone would just call me a slut for liking him, but you know what? I know what I am and what I’m not, so I don’t care. I […]
Wow. Typing the words “I want to kill myself” into google made me feel both desperate and immature all at once. But stumbling upon this page has helped so much in the tiny amount of time I’ve been reading. I feel like a loser because I should be able to reach out to someone other than the Internet…yet I am alone in my life full of friends and family who love me. Â It’s a mesh between not wanting to worry them and getting the old “you’re hormonal” when I say that I’m depressed. I have had these issues as far back as I can remember. […]
I am kind of enjoying a rare peaceful moment…the hour is almost midnight, I am in my bedroom and the window is cracked to let in the cold brittle air of this winters night in yet I hear only the softest of rain patter. It is calming, and the waft of water is cleansing as I breath it in.
Earlier today I was stressed with resume writing for a job I don’t even want to apply for. Then I found a different post and thought, yes, I could do this, and it was easier to write to the qualifications this posting wanted! […]
You can only trust girls on here because they don’t hurt you , 🙁 fml.
i told my parents about how i have a girlfriend now… big mistake.,. did not accept it at all.. so what if i like girls and guys?
ugh… worst night ever. and to add to it. my girlfriend dumped me.. so i told my parents for nothing… i tell my friends and theyre all like “you should of waited a month before telling your parents” and im like, wow! cant you just be here for me instead of telling me the things i should of done differently…
i wanted to start being close to my parents.. so i was gunna try.. well im done trying.. my mom […]
I’m thinking so hard about what I feel my head is hurting. I wish I could end this. Just close my eyes and be gone. But no, I must fight on. I must start feeling more than just angry and scared. I need something that will keep me passionate. I’m to scared to let anyone in because I don’t want to break them. I have friends but they only hang around the shadow of me. The one that makes them smile but don’t mean to but that is not me. Eyes are swollen from tears. I want die. I need to die. I tried, I […]
Hi darlings. Wow, it’s been a while. I think since June? July? Things have gotten worse. If I am not happy in a year I am going to kill myself. What’s the point of me living if I have no reason? I wish I could run away. I wish someone could relate. I wish this depression never returned. I stayed home from school today because I was just so sad I couldn’t bare.
Wow, who knew cutting could give you such a rush!! This is my first time cutting, with a pair of hair cutting scissors. All. Id di was scrape the sharp blad against my skin till little spots of blood came out. These were really shallow though, but i was in a bath so i dipped my arm in the water and i saw the little blood bubblz. Blood is so…mesmerizing. Even though afterwards i can feel dozn shallow cutes i made opening and closing, my heart iz bezting twice as fast and im oddly happy! Its not as hard, cause i cant help but excited […]
I’ve had the best life before, everything i ever wanted, was so good, A loving man, New car, New condo, Great job and people who love me, But that changed so really my time is done here, I just waiting for the right moment and the right way to go, Damn this feels so good! Anyway, my ex could be coming back to my lofe, we we together 4 years, hes so amazing, but i live in Ga now and hes in FL. So anyway, my point is, yes weve all been through rough times, and sometimes is not worth going on living, but you […]
so i told my friend i wasn’t happy and she started to try to preach to me… i know everything she is saying and some of i believe to be true… but seriously… wrong timing. especially when she is one of the few people i can sort of talk to about how i feel… and she knows that when i say that i’m not happy that there really is more to it than just being unhappy.
Wow, you know I never thought I’d say this, but I’m enjoying life. Ive got a boyfriend, but its long distance.. Still though hes wonderful.. Calls me beautiful and always full of compliments.. I got a job, im just.. Relieved things are going so good. Im sort of surprised but its nice. I hope your all doing okay. Please, dOnt give up, find something to occupy yourself with.. Distract yourself, take your meds,eat healthy, excersize. Your all wonderful here.. And I love you all. Thank uou do much for helping me, im glad I didnt take my life like I was going to. […]
Seriously,
I’m 20. I have had major depression my entire life, I have chronic anxiety, borderline personality disorder, and literally have NO friends.
I have no family either, I live with my grandmother who is “insane” , I love her but I cannot take her abuse and her outbursts especially when I am already suicidal.
I’ve been looking at the posts, and I like the helium idea, I will be around a little longer I suppose because I need to get the equipment and the final exit book.
Until then, it would be really nice to talk to some like minded people, its nice to know that I’m not […]