I’m not alone

Wow. Typing the words “I want to kill myself” into google made me feel both desperate and immature all at once. But stumbling upon this page has helped so much in the tiny amount of time I’ve been reading. I feel like a loser because I should be able to reach out to someone other than the Internet…yet I am alone in my life full of friends and family who love me.  It’s a mesh between not wanting to worry them and getting the old “you’re hormonal” when I say that I’m depressed. I have had these issues as far back as I can remember. I get so frustrated with myself because I have so much to be grateful for yet I can never fully get out of this hole. I don’t know what the answer is… But to anyone who reads this, take a little comfort in knowing you aren’t alone. The posts here have reminded me that there is always someone that will listen, and thank you for that.