im getting much worse!

I hate how I’m in so much pain the muscles on my body are so tensed n I can’t even relax now I’m stuck in a loop of pain n misery my spine need to get better if not I will be in pain forever I don’t want that. I’m tired all the time I don’t like to be in so much pain I feel  like I’m never going to get any better my spine n back are messing up my whole body n the bones everything is different my neck is forward but twisted  the muscles are so everything is such a bothersome for anything I do now nothing helps I just want to give up because I have no idea on what to do but wait I hate waiting while I’m in massive pain all over my head hurts I hope people on here understand how much pain I’m.in with my spine scoliosis It messes up my whole body. Are all this pain nothing helps anymore I’m so weak I know I am I try to be strong but I realise I’m not n I feel like I’m.letting my friends down for being so negative towards myself but I try my best to support them as well.