My whole life I’ve felt that I will never live to anyone’s expectations and I haven’t. My sister is really smart and has this good life with her boyfriend, my dad wants me to follow her. I tried but I can’t, I can’t just go through school like it’s nothing I actually have to work unlike her, and I will never marry a guy because I’m gay and I kinda have a fear of men. So no matter what I know I will never be good enough, I wish I wasn’t a coward and hurry up and pull the trigger
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As hard as it may be, try not to compare yourself to others. We all have different paces and excel at different things. You may be quicker at some things than others and vice versa. While you might meet some of Dad’s goals, there will be some you don’t meet. Individuality is a part of life and, as you grow older, you’ll make your own decisions about where you live, how you work, who you date, etc. Do the best you can do now so you build a solid foundation for later. Try meeting your own expectations slowly but surely. You’re better enough than you think.
Thank you I’m glad you think that way and I hope I will too.
Not good enough for who? As long as you know you are trying in school that’s what matters. Nothing wrong with being gay. Marry for love not gender. Like distant.road said please try not to compare yourself to your sister. I know that’s easier said than done but you will feel better if you celebrate your accomplishments instead of being sad that they aren’t not the same as someone else’s.