My best friend of 27 years took her life on August 4th 2011. She used this Helium method, and well she finally accomplished what she wanted to do for the past 15 years. Please if you are contemplating suicide, please for your sake and your family and friends get the help that you need. You may think you are doing everyone a favor but in all actually you are only making things worse for the people who love and care for you.
My friend Angela was beautiful and smart and so funny a wonderful personality, but she had one flaw, she had a depression problem which led her to drink and medicate herself which only made matters worse not better. In one year she tried to kill herself 7 times and each time I intercepted. I know who the hell do I think I am? I am someone who loved my friend enough to stop her. I tried getting her to go into a treatment facility but she didn’t want to go, and I couldn’t make her go. She moved to Florida where she thought she would be happy, and I stayed in Philly and now live in Pittsburgh.
She loved the beach and warm weather, but things just got progressively worse for her and she spiraled down hill. I’m left without my friend, her two sons who loved their mother are without her, her family without their sister and aunt and all for what? And you know what? We are all not better off without her, we miss her, she will never see her sons marry or play with her grandchildren. Death is not the alternative, we all will die soon enough but when it’s our time not because we make it our time.
So if you are thinking about killing yourself please think again, get the help you need and know that whatever you make think you are loved by someone and they will be totally devestated if you take your own life, it doesn’t make things easier it only makes things worse
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I am so sorry, & every time I think about killing myself, I will think of this story
so she only made things worse uh? ,,, she’s probably a ghost now unable to traverse to the other side,,,, with all this negative energy that’s holding her back… it’s called Rest In Peace…
I’ve prayed for her soul to finally be at peace. But she is missed terribly. If you knew her you would have loved her, everyone did. It’s a HUGE loss to this world.
I believe everyone is on this earth for a reason we all serve a purpose we just have to figure out what that purpose is..I’m still searching for mine and I’m 45 years old.
Life is precious and it is what we make it..there is help out there for those who feel that it is a lost cause. You just have to seek it..I hope you seek it, fight for the life you want to have..you and you alone can only make yourself happy.
Killing yourself is not the answer..it isn’t!!! You leave people behind with guilt, with an emptiness that you don’t know how to fill..with what if’s.
I know in my heart that if my friend got the help that she so deperately needed that she would be here right now, that I could pick up the phone and call her to see how she is doing or to go and visit her and now I can’t.
There isn’t any negative energy here, just sad for a precious life that shouldn’t have been ended the way it was.
I am so sorry for your loss. I had a friend in high school who died this way-and you know what? I know he knows he made a huge mistake!! It is worth it to make it through hard times–but people have GOT to help themselves!!
Hay House Radio online has helped me TONs! For anyone who wants to know how to make a beautiful life-JUST LISTEN! 🙂
I’m sorry for your loss.
I’m suicidal. I don’t expect people to have patience for suicidal people, but I’d love if people were honest with us.
Don’t tell us you can guarantee our recovery. Don’t tell us help is there.
Yes, help is often there. And if you are really really lucky, it might even be the-help-you-needed.
And sometimes help is not there. And sometimes it is, but it doesn’t match your needs.
That’s life. And if your life happens to also be riddled with mental illness, chronic depression or hideous trauma, then I can understand why you want out. And I don’t blame you.
I’d still join the choir encouraging you to give life one more chance, because, as a fellow human, I’m rooting for you.
All I’m saying, I guess, is, if you want to help someone suicidal, then don’t tell it, show it.
Because anything else is just not fair.
I’m not addressing this to anyone in particular, and as for marichicm, I can hear that you’ve been a pillar of support to your friend. I’m sorry for your loss.
Every living being has a purpose in this life, and though this life is uncertain, there is also no guarantee that death will end the pain and suffering.
I was there once, ready to end it all… until I realized that all my struggles in life happened for a reason. I was meant to overcome those things, so that I could show others that finding happiness is not impossible.
I hope that everyone reading this will read my post “I was nothing”.
I’m truly sorry for all the people that didn’t see how loved the truly were before it was too late, and I hope they did find peace on the other side.
I loved my friend more than anything, and she knew it. I thought that if I showed her how much I loved her and that if I could make her happy she would change her thoughts of suicide. I was so wrong! She had mental issues as well as a drinking and drug problem. Her thoughts were unrealistic..I’m not sure she even knew what she wanted out of life. She needed help but she needed to want that help in order to get it.
I know there isn’t a one size fits all cure to this, everyone and everyone’s issues are different but if one doesn’t work then move on and try another there are so many different programs out there and people willing to work with an individual, people who actually and honestly care. I know it may seem like a lot of work, but living is worth it.
Life isn’t easy and I’m not saying it is, hell I’ve had some real doosy’s thrown at me, but I dust myself off and pick myself up and I live only for the moment in time that I am in. Don’t worry about tomorrow it comes soon enough. Just live for the day you are in, there are so many lessons to be learned, people to meet, fun to be had, and yes sorrows too but we learn from them. We make mistatkes because we aren’t perfect we aren’t supposed to be, but we should learn from our mistakes and try a different approach next time.
All I can say is, I am not better off that my best friend killed herself…she left a huge hole in my heart and if you are planning on killing yourself please try and find another alternative…death is not the answer those who truly love you will feel like I do that you are gone reach out to those who love you ask for help please, life really is worth living you just haven’t given it a chance.
Thank you to all for your kind words.
I’m bookmarking your wisdom. Thank you 🙂
As far as I am concerned, I knew several people who suicided and it is difficult to have a general approach and to advise not to suicide. My professor of history suicided when I was 13 and we discussed it in the class. It was very strange to me because I could never imagine that this man we loved as a teacher killed himself. I do often think of him, 30 years before as someone who told me to have trust in life and to progress in my studies. In this case, I also do think of all the people who missed him.
the second case in my story is my mother. We had terrifc tensions as I wanted to leave home and it was awful to her. My syster also left the house. This all was a real shock for my mother. She entered a strong depression (she yet tended to be depressive before). She suffered that much with medicaments that I was happy at the time when she succeeded to make herself free (hanging herself).
IN her case, it was a deliverance, a peace she won and we were happy for her.
Kind regards.