are we half alive when we dream? or do we dream because we are half alive? would life be better if we were in a dream? if we continue as we are when we die.. how do we know some of us arnt already dead? what do we live for? if we have pain and hate and love and death… how can we be happy? tragic things … what makes life all worth it.. if nothing was worth it.. wede all be gone… so obviasly … there is always sompthing worth living for… what if we never felt pain.. even though … life has torn me .. i could not imagine a painless life.. for if there was no pain.. there would be no love… because… love.. makes the pain worth it.. would we seak love .. if there was no grief… anger death … or lies… if i was never sad ever… i could never be jappy.. because never being sad would mean i have no feeling whatsoever…. dont get me rong .. i wish i could cure a world of pain.. but i cant.. i can only cure mine… i may not be perfect… i may feel deep emotions people cant understand.. i may have tried to kill myself before… i did cut myself .. when i almost wish i didnt… i also cant sleep…. i think to much … i have anxiety… i love my drugs… a love my pot.. i was bullied all my life.. and my parents would always fight over whos custody i was in… as a child… i felt i had to be an adult.. my dad had skitzofrania… so he would not always be fully there with me ..mentally… my mother.. cant handle her stress… and put alot of it on me…. a few times in my life …shes even phisclly hurt me… out of rage … i may have wirghed a few extra pounds … and i still do… but its all me.. and i dont care.. the sooner i accept me.. for every bit and not care.. i can be happy… i want to see people do the same.. do it now.. right everyting you hate about you … and everthing thats ever sucked in your life… and just take it all in … and just let it go and accept it.
“Everthing thats ever sucked in your life… and just take it all in … and just let it go and accept it.”
It actually sounds like you’re on the right track. 🙂
I also think that you and I have had similar lives. Basically everything you said, I can relate to in one way or another. My parents were never divorced, but they both have their own… mental quirks, that have made it difficult for myself and my siblings to get close to to them.
What you said about pain, love, grief… etc. reminded me of a book I read. It was called “The Problem with Pain” by CS Lewis (Yes. the same guy who wrote the Chronicles of Narnia :P) If you’re at all religious, you may find it very helpful. If not, then it’s still a good read and a very thought-provoking piece of literature.
I wish you the best of luck. 🙂
hey ashley.. i think it would be cool to maybe axchange some emails then… and you can tell me a bi of your life.. we all need to vent… and i really want to help in any way i can… with watever anyone is feeling… :))
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“Everthing thats ever sucked in your life… and just take it all in … and just let it go and accept it.”
It actually sounds like you’re on the right track. 🙂
I also think that you and I have had similar lives. Basically everything you said, I can relate to in one way or another. My parents were never divorced, but they both have their own… mental quirks, that have made it difficult for myself and my siblings to get close to to them.
What you said about pain, love, grief… etc. reminded me of a book I read. It was called “The Problem with Pain” by CS Lewis (Yes. the same guy who wrote the Chronicles of Narnia :P) If you’re at all religious, you may find it very helpful. If not, then it’s still a good read and a very thought-provoking piece of literature.
I wish you the best of luck. 🙂
~Ashley
hey ashley.. i think it would be cool to maybe axchange some emails then… and you can tell me a bi of your life.. we all need to vent… and i really want to help in any way i can… with watever anyone is feeling… :))
Sure. That sounds great. My email is amahaffey444 @ gmail dot com.
🙂