ppl its been so long since iv actually written something.
nothing has really changed in my life except dat it gets worse and i keep on sinking deeper and deeper into this dark hole, im so tired of all these emotions. Iv been going to church alot lately but when i get home i go back to the same old darkness and neverending pain. i cant stand this pain no more. i have nothing left to lose and its not like anyone really cares or truly loves me and it will be best if i just left dis world.
i thought it will get better with time but i have been so deppressed for so long dats y i know it wont go away. I know guys how u all feel, the anger;emptiness; the voices; the neverending pain, insomnia, lack of appitite, wanting to be alone all the time and so much more. im just tired of living and feeling and being so alone
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You don’t have to be alone. You don’t have to feel any of that actually. You can get through this. I can’t promise you that things will get better, but I can promise that it will be worth it if you stay here on this earth. Positive things will happen in you life. God intends only the strongest to be suicidal so we can learn and teach others about it, just like He expects us to spread His word. If you want, feel free to email me at farmerstrong13@hotmail.com. It’d be my honor to help you through this. Take care. 🙂
It’s going to get worse before it gets better. It’s kind of like running down a hill and then walking back up it. When you were running down you were going to fast and sprained your ankle, but then you had to walk up another hill, which hurts like hell. But if you can reach the top of that hill, you can take a break and just sit and heal.
I have been on antidepressants for 20 + years and the depression never really goes away, the pills make you a little stronger so you can hang in there. Do not refuse chemical help if you cant handle it by yourself. It is however necessary to recognize and remember the good things that happen, no matter how short lived.
If you are going to church and looking for God to help you, it will not happen.
Help is not in heaven it is in your own mind and in your own life.
If your life has been crap where you live, try moving to a different part of the country and discontinue contact with those that are hurting you. It has worked for me in the past, however “Gods Plan” has never worked or brought me comfort or relief because there is no God to have a plan. Plan for yourself or have friends help you with your plans. Preachers only have their own image to bolster not your well being. Also if prayer really worked, I would be living with Angelina Jolie at this time. 🙂