My family read my diary, which described all the details of my sadness and my wish to die. I am now on lock-down. They don’t want to leave me alone and I am being pushed toward hospitalization. I now have to move out of my sister’s house because she fears for her children’s safety, not really mine.
So,
I’m looking for a place to live, but I honestly want to be done with this. I have no where to go and no on wants to claim me. I’m pretty sure no one cares about me and the one person I thought I could count on made me lose a little faith in him.
On top of this, everyone thinks I’m lying. About what, I have no fucking idea. They all say I’m “making” myself sad and that I like being unhappy. They act like depression is something people can fake. How do I convince people that I’m not lying? I’ve done nothing but tell the truth, because I do want to get better. I just don’t think it’ll happen.
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its hard because unfortunatly most families find it hard to understand what your going through and unfortunatly panick! and make silly mistakes that they dont realise theyve made but its a bad impact on you. Have they at least asked to take you to ur GP? you put– you would like to get better/begin recovery then i found best way to start was visiting my GP and asking to be seen by a mental health team, your family dont want anything to happen to you and they are all probly very very scared they will lose you, they will only begin to understand if a mentalk health proffesional is there to be able to explain how your feeling/what depression is and the recovery process entails. i hope you get the help you want and need and your family begin to support not panick react!
Good Morning Legit
Not sure what you are asking for here….if you would like to talk I would like to talk to you…but be warned…I ask a lot of nosy questions…lol….And the simple truth is that you can get better….you just have to want to…more than anything else…more than the way you currently feel comfortable defining yourself…been there….like doin it…..but we really do create our reality….we’re often not sure how…especially if our issues began in early childhood or adolescence when we could not understand how we did this….and then we just get mad. But there is a reason….you just have to calm down long enough to figure it out.
I’ll be in and out all day more than likely….if you would like to talk…just let me know…
Namaste
Amakua