Don’t start to panic for me, ’cause I have nothing to lose I am as bright as the sun, I burn up all that I choose, Up on the side of the field, I see a city with lights, I touch her face when I kneel, she tells me she’s not alive….

So…. Updates for those who are interseted in me and my mental health, which is probably none of you….:/.

At 1am On Monday 6th February…my new nephew was born, i met him today and he is stunning….im in love, might upload a photo of us…

Im not talking to my dad, still. we got into an arguement after the whole police thing and thats just been it. i miss him though….should i apologise? do i even have anything to apologise for?….

I’m also considering a foster home, because as long as i’m living here i don’t think i’m going to get better…. so much stress and negative atmosphere….

I’m starting to think that my way of dealing with problems is to plan a suicide, but not to go through with it…. i have done this a lot. It’s probably why Miss gentry told lauren that she didn’t believe i would go through with it….kinda makes me feel like i need to prove that i can, which isn’t good….

Thanks for reading….<3.