oh apathy, I don’t want to be friends anymore.

I spent most of today doing math homework with a girl from my class.   I actually didn’t mind the math homework so much because at least it meant I got to socialize with someone.  But it also depressed me.  She kept getting messages on her phone from friends and several people she knew stopped to say hi to her as they walked to class.  And then there’s me, for whom it’s unusual if I get more than a couple texts a week and all the social interactions I’ve had in the past 7 months can be counted on my hands.  I miss Amber more than ever.  I miss having someone who actually cared about me more than on an unreliable interminttent basis.

I feel so fucking awful and I’m just so fucking tired of it.  I have an essay to write tonight but I’m so apathetic I don’t have any opinons on the book we’re supposed to write about.  Unless you want to count not-giving-a-shit an opinion.  Which I suppose could technically be an opinion, but for me, it’s just how I feel about everything.