I found this site really randomly but here is my story ….
So ive just turned 20, im no longer a teenager anymore 🙁 when i was 18 my mum had problems with money, was always upset because of it i didnt really no what to do, so i turned to prostitution i only done it to help my mum with money troubles, i done it for a little while!
I met this girl while doing it she done it as well she seemed really nice we became really good friends, i was friends with her for over a year, everytime i wanted to stop escorting (nice way of saying prostitute) she would always pull me back into it by making out it was really glamouores and we could do all these amazing things!
She was a horrible ***** as well she would always boss me around and tell me what to do and she didnt like the fact i stood for myself, were not friends anymore and havent been for the past 3months! When we first broke mates for about 2 and half months she done nothing but email, txt me everything and try to get me to be her friend again i was having none of it because she was such a ***** and because i dont want to be escorting no more, so i ignored her!
Now she is threating me saying shes going to come to my house and tell my mum what i used to do, and tell the whole of my area were i live what i used to do! I havent even done anything wrong she is such a ***** i think she mentally needs help she has like to split personailties and its so annoying!
Im really depressed, dont no what to do even thinking about moving away just so i can start again and forget about my past and also because im so worried about my mum finding out i feel sick to the stomach even thinking about it! I dont even leave my house anymore because im scared ill bump into her or incase people already no! I sleep just to try and forget about it, when i wake up i eat, listen to music to try and help me and then go back to sleep again! Im scared of my mum finding out i dont care about what anyone else think about! In the day time im ok but in the evening and night time thats when i start worrying thinking shes going to come round any min and tell everyone everything! I am scared yes ill admit that im not scared of her im just scared of my mum finding out! Even though i done it to help my mum its still not something i want her to no about!
I have no friends left because i was always with her and she was like you dont need your other friends and telling me they werent even my friends and she was a true friend but she wasnt she wasnt at all! I do nothing but cry all the time, i have no-one to talk to about any of this, she wants to ruin my life! My life is already ruined as it is what more could she possibly do part from tell everyone and everything and then if that happens i actually dont even no what im going to do , i will kill myself i cant even live with myself as it is just thinking about what i used to do! Im not proud of it at all i hate myself for doing escorting but i felt i had no other choice!
My mum also dont even appreciate the money ive given her, she has a boyfriend who now lives with us, and its almost like i dont even exsit anymore! she chooses her boyfriend over her kids! I hate her boyfriend as well because before he moved in everything was fine! My brother and my mum dont even talk anymore and that kills me so much im always trying to bring them together but nothing seems to give! I dont have a dad he left me when i was little! Recently found him last year, he made no effort at all to see me or to be apart of my life and i had to go through that all over gain, i just got used to calling someone dad and actually having a dad for it be taken away from all over again all because he didnt even care!! I really do feel like i have no-one, whenever i see people i put a smile on and pretend like im ok and everythng it perfect when its not when every nght i cry myself to sleep!
please dont judge me on what ive told you, im sure everyone has a past there not proud of! mines just a little worse :'(