I know I’m going to get expelled again. But this time I’m not going to wait to see it happen. I’m having my first exam (in this new university) on Monday. I’ll take it. And then I’ll end it. Even just now, instead of getting myself ready for the upcoming exam, I’m just sitting here and staring straight before me. Every moment sucks. Every damn moment. I can’t get over the thought that I’ve chosen the cheapest way to die, and the most ridiculous. Drowning myself in a laundry basin, bullshit, huh? I’ve even been working hard on it, made a few trial runs, to […]
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This morning I looked outside and all I saw was snow. You may think: “Is that special?? O.o” Well, I can tell you: yes, it is. Because in The Netherlands we don’t really have severe winters or often snow. So when there is snow, it’s special. Especially when it’s like 6 inches, like today. I had to go to my part-time therapy (from 9 am till 3 pm every monday till friday) and luckily my father brought me. There was like more than 1000 kilometers of traffic jam, a new record! (on a normal tuesday in the morning it’s around 300 kilometers) and we also […]
I, like many other people, am a “lucky” person.
I have a great family, everything I could want and more, many friends who are supportive of me, and a good life in general.
Yet, all the while, I feel this emptiness inside me where emotions should be. Whenever I feel “happy”, it’s more close to feeling something close to happiness, almost like its shadow. If emotions were people, they would come knocking on the door of my heart, then before I can open the door and let it in, it leaves, making me feel something ALMOST like emotions.
Am I becoming heartless? Unable to feel any […]
I’m 13 year old girl and in 7th grade. I’m a loner and I’m very depressed. Everyday I have to go and come from school. When I come home from school all I do is yell at my parents and cuss. I have never been thankful for what they bought me and did for me… All I do is make them sad and angry. When I don’t get the things I want I yell at them and then we quarrel. After that I go in my room, shut the door and cry. I realize how childish and greedy I am but it’s not just because […]
Why do you guys think that music is such a huge trigger for people. I can definitely say that it is a trigger for me. I always cry when i listen to music. even if its happy music. it really sucks because i love music so much. it just makes me so upset and depressed. 🙁 liek right now. im listening to music and im fighting back an emotional burst right now.
When I listen to music I find that it makes my mood like more if that makes any sence. If i’m happy and listening to music I love like some of Eminem songs I will get more happy but if im feeling down or depressed and I listen to sad songs I feel more down and sad and feel how the music is. Does this happen to you?
Hello,
I found this site really randomly but here is my story ….
So ive just turned 20, im no longer a teenager anymore 🙁 when i was 18 my mum had problems with money, was always upset because of it i didnt really no what to do, so i turned to prostitution i only done it to help my mum with money troubles, i done it for a little while!
I met this girl while doing it she done it as well she seemed really nice we became really good friends, i was friends with her for over a year, everytime i wanted to stop escorting (nice […]
i need to keep busy because every time I’m not I’m more sad and i only think of how I’m gonna be alone forever…
kayso… I’ve told you guys about my break up… it was on january 2nd and ever since that night i cry myself to sleep every night…
theres two other guys….they both like me.. but also live far away… and i know i like them… but it hurts to admit it becuz i feel so guilty… i miss my boyfriend so much…. and they other two guys are trying to cheer me up and make me happy…. and it works… but as soon […]
I’m sorry to all of you who feel obliged to answer to me because I’m a little whiny ***** who thinks she has problems when in reality other people who have had horrible things happen to them wish they could be in my position. I’m pathetic, and it’s about time you all realized that.
You know what is the most horrible facet to my personality, besides the billion other things? That I look for problems in my life so I can gripe about them. I will randomly be arrogant toward someone in my family just so I an hear them call me names. I love it when they […]
I’ve read a couple of posts and I think its great that people have a chance to express themselves and get others to help. I’ve tried to fill myself 4 or 5 times now and I havent been able to do it. I know that most people have issues and that they find it difficult to talk to someone or maybe feel that there is no way out.
I never believed in suicide and I always thought that anyone that tired to kill themselves was selfish and that they didn’t think of the people around them that could help. At the very worst I thought you […]