I Have Depression .. Really Bad. I Get Blamed For Everything, I Find My Self Ugly , Fat Or Even No Good! When People Tell Me Im Pretty I Think There Lying. When Im Upset And Somebody Askes Me “Whats Wrong” I Usually End Up Crying Right At That Moment. I Been To A Clinic To Get Help. Im Now On Depression Meds Now! When Im Upsett Or Real Low The First Thing That Comes To My Mind Is Suicide. It Feels Like I Have No One To Talk To. To Trust. I Feel As Though Im A Loser 🙁 I Get Picked On At School For Being A Little Chubby But Im Not Extreamly Fat 🙁 Sometimes I Starve My Self Just TO Fit A Size 2 And I Know That Will Never Happen. Like Today In The Hallway A Boy Was Behind Me When I Was Walking And He Said ” She Can’t Fit Her Jeans, Fat Ass” And All His Friends Laugh. I Just Want To Fight Them But Im A Sweet Girl I Would Never Fight If Nobody Hit Me First. People Always Say Im To “Emotional” Or A “Drama Queen” .. My Mom Always Puts Me Down By Little Stuff Like ” Flat Butt” , “ugly” Or Even “Fat *****” And I Say Something Back She’s Quickly To Hit Me. Sometimes i Hit Her Back 🙁 My Dad Just Got In My Life When I Was About 12 Im 14 Now. Sometimes I Wish I Could Go Back In Time. And Start Over. My Life Sucks :(( I Just Don’t Know What To DO. I Tend To Eat Alot Of Junk Food Or Cry More then Usual ! the worst thing is , im the joke of school 🙁 why me?
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My mom was the same way. 🙁 She often called me ugly, stupid and referred to me as my mom’s *****. But GOD made you beautifully and to His liking and in the end, His opinion and his love is what matters most. You don’t have to go back in time to start over. Define this moment as the moment you live for you and not for anyone else. LOVE yourself you deserve it!
I know how u feel. My mom called me ugly, stupid, worthless..
thanks guys , i been on the look to find people thats going through what im going through and this website is tending to make me feel a little better. god bless yall.