Cutting..

I havent been on here in a long time!!! i feel like im missing my family on here! so i have had some horrible stuff happening and i have reached my limits so i cut myself. i had earlier written a post on how to start and ex out the pain of cutting but now i understand. i cant go a day without thinking about cutting and/or cutting. i just feel like i need it. it sucks to look down at my hands and wrists and see the scars. I always blame it on the dogs when someone asks. they are so naive. i honestly wish i never started cuz now i cant stop.