Hey guys,
The last time i post on this site was thursday i think. I was trying to make a fresh start but things kinda changed the next day when a girl from my school died from a burst appendix. Today i was at her funeral and it was very sad. She did’nt have many friends sadly and was an only child i could hardly keep my tears away today at the funeral. Why was’nt it me? since i want to die.
I did’nt even know her well but i was still depressed as it should’ve been me and she did’nt deserve to die she never said anything to anything.. I just want to be dead so badly again and my parents keep saying how hard life will be for her parents now and there ruined now..
The other day after mass in the car the priest had being telling us how his sister commited suicide and my brother and dad said suicide is the most selfish thing you can do buy causing all that pain to your family and not caring about anyone but yourself. Why can’t i take my own life? i’m the one feeling like this and it’s my life and i can hardly cope right now so how can i for the next 60 years or so.. I don’t even believe in god anymore, people wasting there time beleiving in an afterlife and dovoting so much time to god and it probabley is’nt even real..I hate life and just want to die Now…
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That is very sad. It is sad to see others die that don’t deserve it. My ex bff’s son died at 9 weeks old, so helpless. My sister died at 34 in a car accident. My mom died from cancer. I Didn’t get to tell them what I wanted to. No, it’s not fair. If I could trade places with them I would in a heartbeat. I’d rather be in pain.
It is sad, and the whole God thing is what I think. No one who wants to live should die, this world would be a better place if ‘God’ or who ever is in charge took the people who don’t want to be here, and the bad people instead of the happy, nice people. Why does it have to be like this??
I have to say to myself that God needed them for some reason…but then I ask myself why doesn’t he need me????
Ino i agree with ye zacurious and amberhaha.. Hate life..
Think of it this way. The world is a crappy place. Everyone pretty much agrees. God takes the ones that have no more bussiness on earth away (they have realized there goal or have completed their mission in life) or the ones who wouldn’t be able to handle life(babies and little kids). Sometimes the death of a little one can inspire others to complete their mission. Ex : my mom had a still birth before I was born. It was likely that she wasn’t gonna have anymore herself so she decided to adopt. She was going to but I happened along and she waited for adoption. Three years later she was ready and a little boy had come up to be adopted. She adopted him. Another few years later we found out that his birth mom was a HORRIBLE person and bad things would have happened to him if he stayed. God planned that still birth so she would later adopt my lovely brother and save him. Even if its not clear God has a plan. Maybe u just have 2 find ur mission
thanks for the advice.. i hope