Just a high schooler. Honors classes, president of NHS, student council etc. good grades, good amount of close friends. I’m above average when it comes to school. But at school, I feel like I’m invisible, like if I were to die one day, it wouldn’t matter. And that goes for at home too. I’m not abused at all, or anything bad like that, but I have something wrong with me mentally, I crave attention. It’s to the point where I cut myself and don’t try to cover it. I have made myself throw up because I always get called names like “fatty” or “pig” by what I thought at one time were my best friends. I can’t deal with it that well. My parents know about u school problems, yet the refuse to do anything about it because they don’t want to get involved. I just want someone to know what I’m going through, I know, attention seeking, but I just don’t want to feel that there is something wrong with me because I do this so I can get the attention I don’t really get from anyone. Sorry if this is a typical suicidal teenage girl problem. Please, I want some advice. I’ve attempted suicide 3 times. I’ve always done it at my friends house so I wouldn’t have my parents be disappointed in me for it. My parents don’t know, it’s always been between my friend and me. No pills, no gun, no rope, just knives. Just help me figure out what to do, and if I’m “normal”.
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I too am in all the honors classes, yet no one sees me. I understand where you’re coming from completely. I can only offer this advice: once your parents find out just how bad things are for you, you will not necessarily get attention. They will pretend to care for a while, but mostly they’ll just push you away because they can’t understand what it’s like. They will hate you, but they will hide it. I’ve attempted three times, and my last ended up with me in the hospital. I’m telling you, attention is not everything it’s cracked up to be. Everyone will just be disgusted with you.
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A lot of this sounds just like me; all good classes, all good grades, upstanding individual, and yet invisible. The only people who appreciate me are my teachers, and even them… eh. But, (and here shall I be a hypocrite) instead of trying to make people see the things you do to yourself, try starting a new sport or joining a club you never thought was your thing. If people see you taking positive steps in your life, they may take a minute to reevaluate how they see you, and realize how stunning you are. Again, I am a hypocrite, because I don’t have the balls to try anything new (social anxiety) but I’ve seen this strategy work many times. Best of luck.