Why must there be so many people here? Feel like everyone is watching me closely. I’m on trial everyday it seems, I have had alot of repressed memories revived,… everyday since its happened i can do nothing but think about it. My girlfrind, and mother of my child, cant even look at me anymore because she can tell i am just paranoid all of the time. She isnt very opened minded but i still love her. I love my daughter, but im afraid im going to grow to be an old paranoid recluse, which i basically am now. My judgement is so clouded suicide has to be the only solution. I cannot face another judge. I DONT WANT TO SEE ANYONE ELSE! Just want to be in my room drinking some pain away untill I die sporadically, or come up with a fool proof solution. I am futile.
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People don’t care too much, never mind it. If you want to be alone, do this until you feel better, and try staying away from everyone who disturb you somehow. It has a solution, and I’m sure your woman and daughter love you, too.
Good luck!
thank you for your response. i feel i just need to cut myself off from the world for awhile and maybe ,JUST MAYBE, i’ll work through this.. the problem is the ones who have been making me so unbearably uncomfortable are my gparents whom i live with, and my girlfriend. . well i guess it is their loss. i will work them out of my life until i feel they are welcome again…i dunno…sorry if this sounds pathetic, but thank you for your response
I actually thought there weren’t many people on here, my judgement is clouded to and clouded to the extreme when I was younger.