I almost made It, I m Glad I didnt

I almost made it 28 yrs ago when I felt the world had given up on me or maybe I had given up on the world i don’t know any more I was 24 just had my 3rd son and in my 2nd marriage my first one was abusive , I finally got out. now my husband had left me with a newborn . my family no help said i was crazy like my Grandma I cryed so much that no tears came any more just the empy feeling nobody loved me nobody cared the world would be better off with me gone,I took the little pills in the bottle hoping to find peace I called wanting to talk to my Grandma but she was not home its to late the pills made me sleepy, found myself in the hospital an unkind nurse telling me how thoughtlees I was not thinking of my child ! inside I laughed cuz I was, he would of be better off without me. several more times I tried till I was 26 then I had my daughter she saved my life! who would protect her if I wasn’t here who would give her the love I never had who? She saved my life. she is now 26 and will be married in 11 days I am now 52 I have made my own life apart from those who rejected me the blackness still comes back once in awhile but I am stronger then it.
I Almost made it ! But Im glad I didnt.

I became a Nurse, Sunday school Teacher , Glass Artist a Foster Parent but most of all Mother of 7 children. Please Please give yourselves a chance.