I’m tired of it all

I’m just so tired. I’m tired of all the criticism, the disappointment, the yelling, the frustration. I’m tired of the promises my friends make and then breaking them right when I needed those promises teh most. I’m tired of feeling hurt because I finally begin to trust someone and that person hurts me unbelievably. I’m tired of wondering when I’ll ever feel loved or when people will finally begin to understand me. I’m tired of going through everyday wondering why I’m still alive and what point there is to life. I’m tired of not being able to cry and let everything that is hurting out. I’m tired of feeling sorry for my friends, who never want to be around me anymore, whenever I TRY to talk to them about my problems. I’m tired of sneaking around to smoke or drink or cut…just so I can feel better. I’m so tired of depression and the emptyness I feel.