again, I am in this deep hole. I am feeling very lonely here 🙁 All those people who are around me over the day, no one to talk to and if I try to start a talk with someone they just leave me alone 🙁 I have holidays next week and they will be like hell again. A whole week where no one in my age talks to me. I am just so tired of searching for friends, unfortunately I am also so tired of being alone. I hate everything at the moment. I hate how I fail at everything I do. I hate myself for hating myself. But there is one simple thing I hate myself the most for. I lost my interest in the world, long ago. I don’t have an activity that totally gets me, I have no real own interests, everything I work for are things others told me its worth working for. I am so useless for everything. Â My life feels like a vicious circle. I want to leave this country and never come back, I want to leave my whole life. I want to leave everything behind, but I don’t know where to go…..
why can’t someone break into my room and shoot me? I don’t want to live this life. So much time left. So much time for being lonely. So much time I have to suffer from. I wish I wouldn’t exist.
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I relate to your story alot.I feel almos nothing everyday.Only void.
I think that it’s the worst about it: not feeling anything about your own passion and a bunch of other stuff.