I told him, about my thoughts. Naturally he didn’t want me to do it. He just surprised me with his kindness.
So… Anyway. Life is shit. Only 21 days now? sweet, I can’t fucking wait. I’m sick of this life and this family and all of the arguements. My brother is a selfish prick, my sister is a *****, My mum just fucks me off all the time… And my dad. Bless him, trying to help but really, he was just making things worse. He shouldn’t blame himself though. I have found out how to cause bruises! 😀 which is amazing as they are easy to make up a cover story for… and also, whenever i’m pissed i can just press down on it, it’s sort of like my stress button… And i think is much better than cutting myself. A lot cleaner.
Would any of you believe me if I said… I think something bad is going to happen. I keep seeing it everywhere, Imagining faces… voices… people…
I have been so panicky lately… It’s mentally destroying me…
<3.
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What happening 21 days from now?
Does that date hold.any special significance to u personally. Or is it just a random date u picked?
Just curious
Urm… It’s my birthday, and also the day i want to try it…
I have always wanted to die on my birthday. It was the day I came into this world its the day I should leave. But I hope I’m walking with a cane to when I die. Think of all the things you will leave behind. You wont always be living with your family. You shouldn’t make a chose that will effect forever based off of right now. All you would have to do is wait it out until your eighteen and then your gone.
Some people are “psychic” in a way. I get headaches when its going to storm. People can feel eyes watching them. Its like that. Or it could be you feeling panicky about your
Birthday.
U seriously must hate ur parent/s. Can u image the psychological f*** u would be putting them through to not only kill yourself but to do.it on ur b day?
killing yourself is 1 thing but to put your parents through even more pain unnecessarily that’s another thing. but if you needham I guess that’s the right message u want to send
Thanks for your time guys… I’m not really psychic… It’s really freaking me out. Seeing all this pain and suffering, to people i know and love. And my birthday just seems right, either way it’s going to hurt them… <3.