Back here again before getting sleep

I wanted to thank one person for asking if I can use help locating resources in my town, I appreciate it, actually I already have been using resources in my area, and unfortunately being bi-polar, I am to the point in my life where I trust almost no-one. Seems when I tell people that know me I am bi-polar, all of a suddenly I am treated differently. I had an experience about a month ago one of my AA sponsors already knew me a little and long story short made me feel like a psycho, so to him I say F**** off. One last thing I have to get off my chest, my own family treats me like yesterdays trash, I have a “family member” that lives close by, and she conveniently will not answer the phone at times, again to her I say the same thing – she calls me when she needs help with something and I must say she has helped me out recently, but when my own family treats me like yesterdays trash, they can kiss my ass. Unfortunately my mom was pretty crazy, never got any help, but again I did not call her that much as I was out of town, but my siblings (2 of them) treated her since she had mental illness, like she was yesterdays trash. So, to my “family” I open say kiss my fucking ass, you will not help me get the help I need, long term I need certain things, so long and short of it – FUCK YOU!! Thanks, sorry folks, my family drives me ape shit, I know I am crazy.