How could they not get this? Why don’t they know how I am feeling? For 4 and 1/2 months I have been crying every night all alone in my bed while teenagers at my school slowly eat away my insides. I have cut myself. I have starved myself. All due to things that these kids say and do to me. But no one knows. My family thinks that I love school. That I have a lot of friends. I have no friends. I hate school. For the past month I have been making up excuses like that all of my friends are busy or whatever. I know that I am covering up my depression, and suicidal thoughts, but it still amaze me that while I am dying inside, no one has any clue.
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I feel the same way…and do those things and my family doesnt see it…they think i am the happiest girl in the world
I read your post and I can’t imagine your depth of despair but what I can tell is that I went through several school years in different grades where I was bullied and made fun of. Some of the things that were said still stick with me to this day. And maybe you won’t believe me when I tell you this but I wouldn’t lie to you about this, find a way to make it through this time in your life because once you graduate from high school you don’t experience the constant petty bullshit day after day. Adults are so far from perfect and you might run into coworkers on a job who want to talk stuff but it’s nothing, as an adult you have more control to shape your environment to make it a place you can feel safe and productive. And please, find a trusted family member who does or doesn’t live in your home and confide in them about what you are going through because sometimes just talking and having someone you know and trust listen helps so very much. I wish you the best and hope you can hang in there!!!!
I’m going through the same thing.
It’s amusing friends/family.. think they really know you. Sometimes family members say, “I know you better than you know yourself” and I I’m thinking..no, no you don’t.
I’ve waited to kill myself for a couple years now, the only thing stopping me is my family..I wouldn’t dare to be that selfish you know? They care so much.
I’m sorry that you’re picked on..you don’t deserve that..I’m sure you’re beautiful.
Hold your head up high..other people don’t matter.
People are jealous, childish, and what to get someone.
Life does get better.
You’ll have some true friends one day and a special someone.
If you ever just need a friend..I’m here for you 🙂
I know that right now you feel trapped and that no one can see your silent cries for help but sometimes as human beings we can be blind, especially when it’s family. You need to hold your head up high and talk to someone, and I mean really talk to someone. Let everything out face to face. No one can hold your hand and walk you through this. You need to take the first step towards getting help, after that there will be people right by your side every step of the way. You’re not alone and you never will be. You are here for a reason, a big reason and you should stick around to find out what it is. Take that first step towards happiness, you deserve it. Keep your head up, you’re beautiful <3