The desire of death is always haunting me like a bad memories.
The joy of a end is a longing of my soul.
The sound of silence is pleasant music to my mind that I do not own.
The peace of nothing is a craving to strong.
If u have the answer I beg you to foretold.
As I have tried many a road and a different end I do not hold.
Just the desire of my eyes to close.
June 2012
This is for you
This is how I feel
Something in my heart not sure if it’s real.
The treasure my heart can’t find.
Trying to keep you off my mind.
You once was mine but know you are not
Left my stomach in a knot.
Stole my heart and now it can’t be found
As to you it’s always bound.
I let you go and I will always regret
Cause u I will never forget.
Is this love I’m not sure or just wanting to belong to something pure.
What use is goodbye if forever u remain inside
Making the rest of the world […]
Outside I’m happy
Inside I’m sad
Why can’t all of me feel glad.
Why can’t my happiness go deeper within
So my heart doesn’t feel like a sin.
A great big smile for u all to see
But behind the smile there is much pain with me.
I wish I could cry and realise the pain
instead this sorrow feels it must remain.
So I write my poems for u all to hear
But my life u must not fear.
The words must be said the feelings felt
Then the dark thoughts will hopefully melt
It has been awhile since I have been here, not suicide just, here. this site.
I don’t have much to say except, tonight is the night.
Good luck to all of you <3
I’m not going to kill myself. Not now. All of the low points I’ve gone through in my mind I feel I’ve caused. If I were to ever take myself out of this world, I would hope that it wouldn’t be because of others, or the world. It would have to be strictly because I felt as though I would never escape my mind. I’ve been told that I am articulate, but I disagree. I can’t process any of my thoughts anymore. Even writing this is taking longer than it should. I realize that it’s not my time to go yet. When I was really […]
people as in my parents. fuck all they say is for me to shut up and im pathetic and uncaring. PLEASE MOM AND DAD GET A FUCK’N REALITY CHECK! i do care bout others, why dont they see that. cuz i dont cry when i hear bout death? sure i feel bad but death to me isnt sad, doesnt make me uncaring. i wish my parents can see the good in me i may not be amazing but at least i have something to offer to the world, my parents(mainly my mom) has put me on talking restriction for being to annoying im not allowed […]
me curious .. has any of you ever tried this ?
(I’m not depressed atm, it would be pointless to try it now)
another SP member posted this video a while ago and judging from the comments on youtube, there’s a lot of positive feedback
Just going to wait for 9 oclock.. Then I’m gone. Mothing but a memory. Thank you all for trying to help. And trying to make life worth living, Im just a lost case. To user ‘nobody’ im sorry for making you feel bad. Its ok what you said, you were only trying to help.. And i am kind of an ass hole. Peace.
Rip Me.
Hi everyone my name is Andy and im 18, i feel really sad because my life is not what i expected, my parents are really overprotective and i can hardly go out with my friends the only place where i can feel comfortable is in my school,because i can be with my friends,but they also notice the fact that i cant go anywhere so they dont invite me anymore because they know my parents wont let me and that its really frustrating even i hate to hear people talking about how i cant do anything, that my parents treat me like little girl im tired […]
Hey guys,I haven’t really been this open about my problems,but I feel like I need to find emotional support.Here’s what’s going on:First of all,there was this guy that I really cared about.We dated a little over a month.When we first talked,I actually thought that he was such a good guy when I didn’t even know that it was an act.Anyway,around the last part of the month,he didn’t see me for two whole weeks when he usually stops by every week.He told me one night that he was done looking for someone because he found me.So,I gave him the benefit of a doubt that he was […]
I honestly don’t know anything anymore, I’m not sure why I am here, what my purpose is, or why I do any of the things I do, but I do them. My suicidal tendencies continue to stay in my mind, and in the last 24 hours they have grown considerably. Now that I think about it, the last time I left the house to do anything social was months ago, sometime around February. That part I don’t fully understand more than most things. I consider myself, and I’ve been told by other they consider me, to be a kind person, quite fun and a good […]
I’m done trying.. see you around.
I love the life I have lived. But the life I’ve been living lately has gotten so boring that I see no point in life. I have no determination for absolutely ANYTHING. I don’t want to work, I dread going to school, my friends and family bore me and I pretty much find sleep as the most exciting thing. I’m not here to say I have screwed up parents or that I’m ugly. Honestly, I have a great family and I think I’m very beautiful. I’m here in curiosity. I want to know if anyone wants to end their life just…. Because? I think what […]
I’ve spent a long while thinking about my decision. Life just is just shit for me and it always will be. Shit started when I was 6, when I just came to Ireland with my mom to meet my da, I honestly had no memory of him before, life got bad when he entered it. It was a bearable kind of bad though. My sister was born later, after a while I got used to him beating my mom. It was bearable. When I turned eight and he got his new job, I dont know why but he began to turn on me as well […]
Because no matter how hard I try it’s never enough. I’m tired of hurting….I’m just trying to figure out the best way to go and the right time. I would hit myself but it’s too many people around.
Everyday brings the same crap, everyday I wake up nauseous as hell.
Everyday I think about how I can successfully kill myself. My parents think I
need to be under medication, because I find it hard to express emotions and feelings when I find everything pretty shitty.
Any temporary happiness I have is always clouded with suicidal thoughts.
As each day goes by sleep is something I resent more and more. Truth is I hate sleeping because I hate waking up to another shitty day
in this existence.I live with the innate idea that if I was never born, I would be happier since I would […]
I’m new to this so I don’t really know how to explain what I’m feeling but I need to get this out. My girlfriend left me 2 weeks ago and she was the reason I did anything with my life. She is the one it’s as simple as that and I would do anything to get her back. I’m a manic depressive anyway and I’ve been on pills for the last 6 years with no results. I have been seeing shrinks for the last 5 years and ended up in hospital 3 times trying to kill myself. I cannot deal with this anymore I’m 22 […]
I am feeling incredibly low right now. My marriage is falling apart, I am dealing with depression. My husband threatens to take our son away from me because my emotions are no stable. There is not much to live for . Help
I am feeling incredibly low right now. My marriage is falling apart, I am dealing with depression. My husband threatens to take our son away from me because my emotions are no stable. There is not much to live for . Help
I have 5 sisters. My imperfections used to be guarded by my older sister, she’s 18. She rebelled against my family, did very unfortunate things, and next to her I was perfect. Then she was kicked out of the house. With her gone, all my imperfections came to light. I now sit between two perfect sisters. One is 23, the other 15. I am 17 and next to them I feel worthless. They are always better than me. They love better than me, they are more fun than me, and they have a better personality than me. At least that’s what my parents make clear. […]