Just Stressed..Dad I hate you.

Its been almost 2 months since my dad agreed to stay out of our lives. Ive hated every minute of it, Ive sent him messages, texts, basically anything to get him to contact. After our last arguement a few weeks ago, he said fine..I mean he didnt even fight to see me..He spent ten years away, in prison. Now its been almost 3 years since hes been out..Ive only seen him almost 2 years out of that. My mom keeps saying instead of being so rude to him, which I will admit im doing now because he wont respond at all, try asking if he`ll pick me up this weekend. Ive tried that already! He just wont do it, he wont even say he loves me. Its just stressing me out non-stop. My mom just dosent understand, my brother dosent even think about it. But since he was the main one who finally helped get me on the anti-depressants..I want him here to see me get better. Im so fucking sick of crying about this, Im sick off all this shit. Im just ready to die. Now im fucking crying about that..I hate admitting I still want to die. I want to believe Im getting better..Its just not working.

If I here one more person say im suffering from “daddy issues” Im going to go off and beat the shit out of them =P

Rant over…for now =/