My Story

Okay, Here i go i am 15 year old girl i have been cutting my self since i was 10 and ive had enough i cant take it no more i wanna die just dont wanna hurt the people who i love but i have to many resons to do it i live with the pain on me every day that i wasnt even suppost to be here in the first place i was a mistake the only reson im here is my mom was to far along for an abortiuos i dont live with her i got stuck on my grand parents since i was 3 months old i dont even know who my real dad is i get pick on at school we moved where we live now because they found out i was cutting on my arms they thought i would stop but i havent i vut my legs now and i been doing it even more i have but one good friend and she cuts to i thought i had a really good friend about 6 months ago then she just turned on me out of the blue and all my other friends dont have nothing to do with me now and the rest are moving and i feel the only reson we still friends is because i live near her and she cuts to thats about all we have in common and i was in love 2 months ago dont tell me i dont know what it is i do i had known the guy since kindergarden we were a young couple by third grade he moved then about 2 years ago we hooked back up he knows my past then i moved her we broke up again because i moved then got back toghter when he got his license but his dad made him dump me because i live so far now my cutting is coming more i do it atleast 3 times a day and some times i cut to deep but im not going to tell my grand parents they will just send me off again so i just wanna die i need help and if i dont get it imma do it im tired of living so help me out  and dont be like get profetional help