almost there

i almost fully had the will to continue on living..then i go to a friends house and her sister tells me she is tryin to split my bf and i by telling my parents im still secretly dating him. my parents find out; i wont have internet access at all! let alone my bf? i cant live without him, hes half the reason im still alive and if i lose internet access il lose the other half, i cant let that happen…but if she does tell she has no proof. haha jokes on her now but still freaking i just might lose everyone close to me..she was abot to tell my mom but she didnt answer the phone THANK GOD! but im paarnoid she will remember, her sister says probably not but i really hope shes right i cant lose my bf. ive lost 5 times before and i cant stand it…but thank god for loopholes and her bad memory. and her sis has got my back. but ahh just still flippin..if i get in trouble..im done case closed