bleh :P

today after school i hung out with my friend lily she is really nice i met her in P.E i also hung out with my ex or bf or what ever he is we went back to her house and started drinking i just followed along because i did not know what to do it helped numb the pain… after i left they he stayed at her house and continue drinking the scotch she pulled out of her parents liquor cabinet… when i got home i  started doing shots of vodka and i did some drinking while i was home by my self i almost got caught by my mom when she got home but i did not get caught.. now i am feeling weird i feel tired and loopy sorta i fell out of a chair earlier and laid on the ground (this was before my mom came home) now i am doing my best to walk normally when i go into the living room but i am walking awkwardly…. no i feel  like passing out and falling a sleep for the rest of the night but its too early its only twenty to seven so i need to stay awake until at least nine… i cut my self again on my wrist and ankles… so i am covering those up…. any ideas on how i am going to feel tomorrow morning?? and i assume i am drunk but i am not sure HELP!!