That title is ironic, I am alone.. For now.
So, feeling a bit better than I did last night, Finally got through to the person I wanted/needed to talk to. Maybe things can be okay… For now.
I got a letter from CAMH which is who are doing my mental health assessment, I have this like, thing (i’ve forgotten what it’s called) to fill out, basically just about me.. Nothing mental yet though. I went to the beach today, With my family. And we took our dog who loved it, bless her. She’s so tired now XD just like me I guess… But no sleep. Not yet. No.
Tomorrow looks promising, My dad is taking the familt to an art museum… After i kinda begged? I guess. But he’s given in so i’m looking forward to that, The minority of the majority of you know how much I love art. 🙂
This is one of my few positive posts I think.. So let’s ruin it. I’m not quite sure, But I think I saw daniel breifly today, Tied to the front of my dad’s car. I have no fucking idea how or why that happened… I also had a thought about the illuminati, And the fact that I think they are watching/trying to control me.. I thought that they were watching people through tiny cameras in T.V’s. And I also used to think that someone was watching me through a mirror… Which is kinda wierd because now, Before I can look away from a mirror I havce to smile at myself.. OS what if i’m smiling at the person in the mirror and that’s incouraging them to do it more?
Urgh. I don’t know.
I love you guys though. <3
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was the lady there?
Its good that you are getting to do a few things with your family that you seem to like. I have no doubt that the govt or the illuminati or whoever would love to be able to spy on people but tiny camera’s in the tv I dunno they would probably just go with the cell phone’s instead.
Please don’t tell my that. I would never use my phone again…. And no, she wasn’t. She only appears at the end of my bed before i go to sleep…
Just go to sleep nat. Everything is going to be okay.
lol sorry Nat, well truly though I would imagine they could spy on whoever they wanted if they really wanted to…then the question would be why would they want to spy on you. I mean I think if someone were spying on me all day, watching my boring ass just sit at the computer all day doing nothing would probably make them want to kill themself out from boredom within a week 😀
yes just go to sleep Nat its ok
Lol, What am I Doing!
Nat are you a UK girl by any chance? (The mention of CAMHS).
I’m glad you’re going to the art museum, babe. It’s a gift to be able to enjoy those kinds of things.
Love you right back! Zx
lol I used to thinq that they were watchinq me threw the camera In the computer.And the dot In the box for the tv.And I know for a FACT that for a lonq period of time my phone was beinq tapped.That’s why I don’t have numbers saved.I just memorize or remember the last four numbers of everyone.For a lonq time I’d be scared to walk across the street to my house from my friends house cause I felt that I knew too much and that they were qonna kill me.
Still breathinq.My phone qets tapped every now and then and I let them know that I know thier listeninq to my convo.
Lol, I tape a piece of paper over my camera on my computer when i’m not using it and don’t talk about anything really serious over the phone like if i’m meeting a friend somewhere we have to determine where it will be in person. i’m super paranoid though but seriously my phone is totally tapped. i hear some random beeping on the phone or my voice echos alot. they are definately spying on us guys! Plus i’m home alone like all the time i have 3 deadbolt locks oneach door!!
haha I used to always put a sticker on the camera on the computer,I stopped tho.When I know thier listeninqs I’ll say fuck the Illuminati to my friend and he’ll say hell yeah.That was after I qot over beinq scared of them haha.haha I know what you mean,It kinda freaks me out when I hear my echo.Locks arn’t qonna do anythinq,qet pitbulls!I have two!
Thanks zoe, and yeah i’m from the uk 🙂 and to you two… Thanks. All of that… Was interesting. Probably going to pay for that later when it comes to thinking about the illuminati. -_- 😉 and whatamidoing… You’re not boring, just crazy remember 😉
lol Nat you still up isn’t it past your bed time?
Lol no. -_- it’s only 01:47… Not that late! :/
geez. 9:08 here
that is pretty late lol its like 6pm here and I am half asleep already
That’s probably because you have been chasing a 3 year old around 😉
dude you have no idea it was awful, when my sister got back,I laid down and was listening to music fell asleep 3 or 4 times lol and I was only stuck with him for like 3 hours! finally just slept a few hours got up at like 10pm where the heck do kids get that energy
Sugar from chocolate and ice lollies 🙂
heya Gnat, sounds good, you telling us what you had for dinner? 😛
Meh. I wish. I might be in a better mood if i did.
well its not to late go get some!
This is like the cake dilemma all over again, i have none! 🙁
you had hours you could have baked another cake!
You seem to have forgotten that i was at a museum today!
those places have closing times its like 3am there now no excuses!
Mmm… I know, bad gnat. 🙁 i will make a cake tomorrow… Maybe.
well maybe if you need one, but hopefully tomorrow is a better day and you won’t ned a sugar boost 🙂
Meh… But luis is back… Tomorrow can only go two ways…
well I hope it goes whichever way means a happy Gnat
I don’t know which way that is yet… Let’s find out tomorrow. Now i just need to get past this fear of sleep…
you aren’t gonna get past that tonight gnat just got to go to sleep fear or not 🙂
Easier said than done.
yep but you gotta sleep every night Gnat even if it scares you
Mmm… :/