this is the hardest

i have been in 5 other long distance relationships and this one with u is the hardest. probably cuz my love for all 5 others combined doesnt equal the love i have for u, i love the way we both dream of us being face to face one day, how u say i mean more to u then ur life, how u say u wanna mary me, how u make me feel incredibly happy when i hear from u how no matter the distance its always like im right next to u how every morning when im bout to wake up i think ur right next to me even when i find ur not it makes me feel closer to u how even though u ignored me for 2 months now that ur back u have made 100000x more effort. see this is the hardest. cuz not for 2 or 3 more years can i literally be in your arms and feel safe. oh see how much i love u. my fear is school is commin up R U ganna cheat? i asked u said wellif i do it doesnt mean we cant be friends. that put the fear deeper in me. i DONT WANT SUMMER TO END. i risk losing one of my only two reasons to go on and live. i wanna be your baby forever. so just wanna say i love u. i love u oh too much. our love is the hardest but i know it will be worth it.