so this site edited my last post, kind of pissed me off…but anyway..
Im here, somehow. I almost went to the mental hospital again, but my psych just increased one of my meds. Do i still think of suicide? Yes. Do i want to do it? Im not sure.
I think about it all the time…but im scared.
I do honestly feel thought that i have spent enough time here on this earth. I dont want to live everyday a mentally ill wreck.
I wrote a few notes already, but ive tucked them away. I just sob until i fall asleep.
Theres two things that can happen to me at this point. I go on living like this, or i check out.
*shrugs*
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checking out sounds alot better then living. ive written some notes, i also have them tucked away in a safe spot..i respect whatever decision you make.
I really don’t have much respect for my state any longer! Time has gone by and I am still here feeling sorry for myself and talking suicide without doing it. It’s pathetic. Either I followthrough and kill myself FOR REAL or I go ahead with this horrible life and make whatever out of it without complains, but staying here as paralyzed as I am, suffering and being a burden to others should not be an option.
thats exactly how i feel.