Suppose you had a plan A and a plan B. Plan A is the best thing that ever happened to you. Plan B is suicide. And for months plan A is coming along great. And then suddenly plan A is taken from you. Wiped out of existence. Then plan B starts to look nice and nicer. I mean, plan B was always there right? Always at the back of your mind anyway, so why not? Why not? And plan B has a definite date. And it’s coming soon. You have it all planned. Yet, you’re still holding on to plan A deep in your heart. But plan A is gone. Plan B is all that’s left.
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I completely understand what you mean when you say that Plan B has always been there. Once you think about it that very first time, it never goes away. I also understand holding onto Plan A, even when you know it’s useless.
I’ve known for years that my life will end at my own hands. It’s only a matter of when. Maybe it will be before this Christmas. Maybe it won’t be for another decade. I don’t know.
I guess I’m still hoping a Plan C will pop up.
I guess you just got to hold onto plan a for dear life. I like how you wrote this. I feel we are in the same boat, sadly it also seems to be a sinking boat.
i would say false dichotomy. when plan z666 fails its time
I understand completley as well. Holding on to something that is gone, and done with. In turn, all you have left is to think about “Plan B”. It’s so hard to ignore it when it’s all you have left.
It’s scary how we’re all alone in this together. My “Plan A” was going along for a decade. Until it was smashed to pieces by the person I least (but probably should have most) suspected of ever doing that. I understand holding dearly to Plan A, even though I don’t understand why, long past the point when it’s obvious nothing remans except a futile dream. Once your heart breaks apart, where does Plan A go?
And yes, once that thought enters your head the first time, sadly it’s always there as the escape clause. My boat is sinking fast. Faster than ever. Be strong guys.
OMG i know exactly how you feel..plan AandAhalf: Never move to plan B <3