the sense of peace..

idk. so i can look at anyone oranything and instanttly feel peace around them..like they dont fear waking up in the moring terrified what will happen to them..i go shopping and when i see like bed covers i see them and say to myself “i can spend forever under those covers oh wait i cant-_- i face a demanding sister that never lets me sleep once shes awake or be in my room…i walk around and look in front of me but whats actually there isnt what i see. i see a vision of peace i can sit happily on the couch or walk around town with a huge group of friends…ok ok i know u probably think im fucking cray..but REALLY! idk what im thinking…maybe…i just need to get away-_-