Words hurt, but actions hurt most.
This is my first post.
I wish someone really understand me. I think I’m going to commit suicide tonight. I know that my family will be better without me. Everyone will be better without me. If nobody support me, Why should I live? I wanted to do a lot of things in my life, but nobody’s approval. I don’t want to feel anything anymore. I’m sick of people telling what to do, what is right and what is wrong. They drive me crazy and then they says I’m a psycho. I hate lies! Why is more easy to invent, to make a lie, when is more simple to tell the truth. Love? There someone know what is it? I know that anybody of my family will never read thing, but I don’t want to left things unsaid. Mom, why you were not more attentive? Why you always crush my dreams? What you have to do what you did? You ruin my future. You didn’t help me. When I was a kid I see all my cousins and friends moms take them to sports, dancing class and you never did it. I want to do ballet, play soccer, drama class but it bothers you. I work hard and pay the bills and you treat me like a little girl be home a twelve. I’m 19! I’m not a baby anymore. I want to be free. Dad I love you. You always be my hero, Sorry for not take care of you, my head is so messed up. Sister I love you! You were my only true friend and I know sometimes a treat you bad. Sorry. Be safe and have a great life. To my boyfriend: I want you to be happy with someone else. You deserve better, not someone like me. I’m a crazy bit** and I drive you mad. Be always yourself you don’t have to change for me. I really love you, but I know that I make you unhappy. God, I’m sorry for I’m going to do, but nothing is going to change. I’m really sorry.
I wish that everyone here finds they happynes.
Bye.
3 comments
i understand my except the roles are inreverse with my parents my dad was an asshat but my mom cared. but you shouldn’t go through with it i’m 18 and had the same feelings a few months ago but just think there’s still time for it to get better. you have your whole life ahead of you.
wow, :'( this is so so so so sad,
im sorry you had to resort to this, i really am, your mom wasnt an adequate mother to you and that sucks, im so sorry your dad, boyfriend, and sister couldnt understand you.
im sure they all wanted and tried to help you, and your boyfriend is going to be devastated, im sure he didnt mind listening to you, even if you do think your crazy im sure he wanted to be there for you all the time.
But i know for a fact that even though he doesnt want you to die and leave him, he rather have you be free and happy, if he couldnt make you happy and nothing else could then your reasons are valid.
i hope you can reconsider your choice, im so sorry if you cant. good luck
hey, im here and i totally understand my mom would never let me do anything im 18 and i cant move without her approvial i get treated like im 12 she even gives me a beds time that is he same as my 12 year old sister im the bad child to her and my sisters the angel you gotta stay strong and keep your head up im sure your boyfriend loves you i used to think i drove my boyfriend crazy to but he loves for me to open up as long as i take his advice and keep my head up so please stay in there