growing up, i’ve realized that life isn’t a gift. though, it isn’t hell ethier. they are both of a mix, even though that seems a bit impossible.
for me there’s no drive for life for me. i know i’m extremely young, but i think i know this outline of life. i really don’t understand why bother involve yourself with living. what is life about? gettting married? getting a good job? getting an awesome career? or just be happy? < now, how will this help any1 else around me? or to make others happy? hell, no one has the fing answer, i know that, but why? scientificly, we”re here because ceellls, and life, bateria build up, evolution was developed on this planet and we popped out of no where.
basically, we’re just a natural occurance that really doesn’t contribute to earth’s society, more like, we created our own “human” society, that won’t last for another million years. somehow, i think, somehow this earth will blow us off this planet through it’s harsh natural disasters.
but anyway, to me, there isn’t a purpose to us. we’ll just come and go. we might lived and created all these neat stuff, but then afterwards, we’ll all wither away.
but some people, have a lot to live for. like educated people, who work their azzes off and go for the highest absolute limit to acheive the not so worth it goals. at least they can leave something behind.
but then wat about the rest? waat of those who just live cause they need to, to continue living? i dont think i got much to live for. in fact, determining yourself to see if you have much to live for is very easy and simple. it’s not hard. i say, i dont got anything to live for.
i m a loner, i might talk to people, but only when i need to. i sit in my room, looking at this screen all day. i dont like hanging out anymore, and i dont want to be involve with anything personal. ii’m just a simple vegetable no body eats. if i know i can leave something behind for others to continue, maybe i would change my view point about life.
there rly isnt a point in me living. im just another mouth to feed in the houshold, and will later just end up like a withered pile of leaves.
you know what, if, which is almost the most difficult task for any human being, if, i can discover something, and leave behind something extremely beautiful or helpful, or created something that will help us humans later in the future, to help people who are of in need, maybe i’ll think life is worth living.
i personally think, the only purpose humans have, if capable, IF THEY ARE ABLE TO PURSUE, unlike douches like me, is to leave behind something for others that would sum up your life. nothing else i wud want more. i wud just want to leave something precious for others to treasure or to help them.
but there isn’t a godamn thing in my life that helps me do that