dissociation

hahahaha thank you Wretched. that’s the word I was looking for, I do this without realizing and then those who were closest to me have given up and moved on, i’m always making new ‘friends’ only to move on to the next set. is it because I’ve yet to move on, to grow up? is it that i need to take that next life step to truly have friends or do i just not care about others? hahaha cant even answer my own questions.