Hey everyone! I just wanted to share something….
Lately, I’ve been wishing for my death whenever I’m irritated. I’m sort of easily annoyed. Little things get under my skin. Like, whenever someone comes into my room and leaves my room without shutting the door. That really pisses me off. Whenever I try to get my uncle’s attention and he takes forever to respond (He deliberately does that) because he’s focused on his iPhone irks me, too. I dislike going through the trouble of doing something for someone else because they choose not to do it themselves (Referring to family. I am the youngest, so I’m ‘bossed’ around the most.) Ugh, I’m not trying to come off as a whiny *****, it’s just that stuff like this really stresses me out. I mean, I know that I shouldn’t let trivial matters such as these get the best of me, but I can’t help but react so negatively. The fact that I stress out about these kind of small things stresses me out even more! Why do I have to be so irritable, to the extent where I harbor a death wish? I’m usually cool and collected, and yet at the same time I’m easily triggered. If that makes sense. I’m horribly impatient….And as much as I hate that aspect of my nature, I can’t change it. If I could, I would. Huh, don’t I sound indecent? I just need to learn….Learn how to better care for myself, or something of the sorts. I’m close to being on the brink of insanity, probably.