I told my sister that I want to die before I’m 16 and she said I REALLY need to get therapy and maybe me being in a MENTALÂ INSTITUTIONÂ wouldÂ actually HELP me. All my sister ever does is undermine my problems. And thinks I don’t really want to kill myself
So ive never been a blogger or anythig but I would like to share my story so people can relate. When I was younger I was bullied at home and at school. My dad was always very mean to us whicj is sadly common. I was a very sick child and they thought I would die at an early age. I was very skinny where you coul see all my ribs and my eyes sunk in. People often made fun of me at school for being so sick. I was bullied all through elementry school for being ugly,sick, and dumb. Life was very hard for […]
I made the worst mistake of my life by trying to end it.Â But the craziest thing happened.Â It became the biggest blessing as well.Â I grew up hearing things like, “you’re ugly,” “worthless!” “a mistake” “why didn’t you get an A?”Â This over time by family, peers, and our culture in general just eroded my self-confidence and by the age of 23 I was in full blown anger and depression.Â I was so tired of being rejected, judged, teased, bullied, etc that I couldn’t see any other solution but taking my life and so I tried.Â Well, God decided he had another plan and […]
I thought that having a crush was normal. It is, but it’s not when that person is all that you think about. You dream about them. You daydream constantly about them saying that they like you the same way you like them. These things aren’t normal. I think I’m just fucking going insane. Trevor is honestly the only thing I can think about. He’s my safe haven, in a way. I focus on him instead of focusing on how much pain I’m in. I guess it might be normal, but it doesn’t feel that way. I don’t want to go crazy. I don’t want to […]
My depression is getting bad again and I want to die. I have severe social anxiety so i have no one to talk to. I can’t go to school because I am so depressed. I literally cannot even leave my bed. When I miss a week of school none of my classmates notice that i was ever gone. No one acknowledges my existance now, but i can almost guarentee that if i killed myself, the people at my school would act like its so tragic and “i was such a beautiful person.” i hate society, i hate people and i want to die. Today my […]
My Name is Markus Jolley, also I go by MJ. I haveÂ tried at least 12 attempts of suicide, all failing, and now all I have is myself.Â I have no family, and I live in a group home for troubled or stranded youth. When I did have a family, I developed differently than any other kid my age. The Tests for mental instability or disorders started when I was 5. I went through medical tests over and over, until an MRI was ordered on my brain. It turned out that I had Frontal Lobe Gliosis which looks like this. http://www.ajnr.org/content/24/2/218/F3.large.jpg
This Problem explained my functioning […]
well just got out of my two week stay at the suicide part of the hospital, i feel even worse than before. I go through all this shame of being suicidal and all the dirty looks of the staff members when i dealt with them. Being suicidal sucks, i failed ten times before and the eleventh i think ive got it made but my mom found me too early and i lived then spent the next few weeks in a mental institution. God wont let me die and its fucking cruel!
Today I broke an ongoing achievement of mine which was to never smoke , but I was told it relieved depression after the first one I was actually quiteÂ surprisedÂ at how I felt. It felt great I was also offered cannabis which I took, looking back I’mÂ disappointedÂ in myself as it was a stupid thing to do and now I’m getting addicted. But it’s made me quite suicidal I’ve gone to the point of self harm but what I found weird is it relived my depression more than smoking or weed. I don’t want to get addicted to this or take it to far but it would […]
Guys I really need some help. I am not doing good at all. Each day just gets worse and worse. I feel like im suffocating, drowning in my own fears of having to live another day. How can I survive when every part of me is telling me to end it? How much it would be easier without me here? I can’t tell my friends anything because they tell me I am being overdramatic, my family would just throw me back into a mental institution and the only true friend I had died. The two year anniversary of him killing himself is coming up and […]
I think it’s possible I might have the hardest life of anyone in the world.
I love someone, I’ve loved her for 2 years since we first talked on Skype. She is from Colombia, I’m from Canada. We have never met but we talk all the time, on facebook… & have talked many times on Skype. The only problem is… I was sent to a mental institution, because my parents called the police & told them I was psychotic. I was just visiting my parents house over christmas, & I think my meditations & abundance of energy kind-of freaked them out. Anyways, the cops came… and […]
As soon as I am old enough I am going to admit myself into a mental institution so I don’t do anything that will make me even more of a disappointment to others. I have accepted that everyone hates me and my aunt is too kind to throw me out herself. I even accept that secretly my dad probably drank himself to death because he hated me and couldn’t stand me. I know everyone loves my sister and brothers more. I also know that if/when I kill myself noone will care or be sad. This is probably my last entry so for everyone that hates […]
My name’s Sabrina, im 16 now a sophomore . I was 12 when i first started thinking about suicide. I was going into 6th grade one of the hardest times in a kids life. I had never really had a child hood, my dad had been a crack addict my whole life. My mom was sent to a mental institution after i walked in on her cutting herself a couple times. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, anxiety, depression and bipolar disorder. During the summer is the worst i stay awake all night crying, burning, cutting. nothing ever helps me. im so scared. i always think […]
I tried to kill myself by taking a lot of extra strength Tylenol. I ended up in the hospital with liver damage,dehydration, and other stuff. It was the worst pain, I’ve ever experienced in my life. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. My boyfriend and friends felt horrible wondering what they could of done to stop me. My mother cried nonstop. Before you think about committing suicide, think about the pain it’ll cause your family. It’s been 3-4 months since I was released from the hospital with an unsuccessful suicide attempt and I can’t do activities, like track, I was once able to without […]
My thoughts of suicide started when I was 13 years old.
Â I made a friend through a connection with another friend, and she was awesome (at first). I found out a month into our friendship that she did drugs. I encouraged her to stop, but since she was 5 years older than me she was too self- absorbed to listen. So, one night she slept over my house, and curiosity got the best of me, and I tried the drugs. It was… wonderful, to say the least. So more ‘sleepovers’ were planned afterwards. If I can recall correctly, it was about the third time she slept […]
IÂ was at the hospital the past couple of weeks & I’m so scared.Â I’m 18 and I’ve been homeless since Jan., I weigh 70 lbs & I’m barely alive.Â Everytime my brain tumor goes away, Humphrey (yes I named it) comes back & I’m so sick of hospitals & life.Â Then they said I was dangerous to others & wanted to send me to a mental institution but I barely dodged a bullet and left. Since I was 8 I’ve had to rely on someone else to help me live [AKA hospitals/doctors] & I hate it. I hate bothering people. I’ve attempted suicide but was […]